My name is Flora (mae) Evans . Ahh!! MAE is my home town surname. So yes am a married women.. well i got marry when i was 24 yrs old, now its been 1 year since i got married Everything is fine in my married life my parents are happy, me nd my in laws are also happy jst i think my husband..maybe he's not happy about this marriage. well its not like he doesn't Respect's me or his behavior is Cold or Rude but i still think that he doesn't love me I don't why but he always stay's away from me even my little touch irritates him . I want him to spend some time with me, to make me feel love, i want him to hug me to pat my head... is this to much to do ... i feel really jealous when i see some married people doing such things ...*chuckles*..
WELL ALL THIS THINGS WERE ALWAYS GOING IN MY HEAD I STARTED TAKING THIS LITTLE THINGS SERIOUSLY ND ONE DAY I TOOK OUT ALL OF MY UNCONSCIOUS FEELINGS UNTOLD WORDS ON HIM. AS USUAL HE WAS SITTING IN FRONT OF OUR WINDOW IN AN WOODEN CHAIR READING A BOOK ND OFCOURS HE WAS LOOKING SO HANDSOME EVEN IN THIS STATE I CAN'T TOOK OF MY EYES FROM HIM..BUT WHILE I HOLD MY BREATH ND PUT MY WORDS IN FRONT OF HIM AS I SAID " don't you love me? did i force you to marry me. did i do something wrong? or you love someone else....! i said those phrase in jst one breath while keeping my eyea shut..i somehow felt the room's atmosphere suddenly went silent... "As i opened my eyes nd the moment i saw his face i knew that am going to regret this moment my whole life.. that's when he took his step towards me, nd now he is standing in front of me not jst in front but really close.. to be honest this is the first time when i can clearly sense his strong presence, he is so fine nd tall his body fragrance is so mesmerizing.. the thing is, now am really afraid while saying those previous words i did close my eyes bcz i knew it that i won't be able to say those things while looking into his eyes. now that am standing looking into his eyes...'I jst want to think it, as a dream, but....... i cant why?' then suddenly he said .. ' why? ...why did you said that?... ' I wanted to speak but my lips were trembling... only thing i did was to keep looking into his eyes..'why do you think that I love someone else? it was also my decision to marry you... YOU! ARE MY WIFE ND I ONLY LOVE YOU ND WILL ALWAYS DO . sorry that i never tell you though but still there was love when i marry u there is love when i look at u, nd even now there is love when am holding u .. now jst want to embrace u but bcz there was no love before i meet u nd marry you that's why i always want ur permission before i do something bcz it was an arrange marriage so practically this doesn't give me rights to do something that is outof limit jst in the name of 'Marriage' ...u understand ... His words were jst like him sweet nd bitter all this time i was jst thinking about things that were never true in real life JST BCZ OF MY OVERTHINKING i always felt that he's not happy with me without even knowing his true feelings ........ I LOVE YOU flora....he said that in my ear ..
........So OVERTHINKING IS NOT GOOD IT SHOULD KEPT AT A CERTAIN LEVEL WERE U CAN AT LEAST U CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT IS THOUGHTS ND WHAT IS CONSEQUENCES
thankyou...
