"Damien! Get your ass here! FAST!!" I heard my brother's scream from the garden.
I bid my goodbye to the bed unwillingly and obeyed as he said. That 'fast' isn't necessary to make me water the plants. He can just say that.
I entered the garden, but he was nowhere in sight.
"Don't panic," I heard his voice from outside but I was searching behind the garden. I walked towards the front to see Liam fell down at the middle of the road and my brother helping him. I rushed towards them and without uttering any single word, I lifted Liam to make him sit on his wheel chair. Liam looked at me to say something, but I stayed silent.
"Take it easy kid," my brother ruffled Liam's hair and I stared at both of them. Moreover like a glare.
"Damien, be with Liam. I will check the CCTV to see who hit him," he said and I nodded in approval.
When he was out of our sight, Liam spoke.
"Your brother left... Scold me or you can even hurt me by your words but speak. Please. Don't stay like this. Say something," he said but I didn't give in.
"Damien...please-"
"Shut up! Just shut up! How can you be so careless?! I told you not to get out of the house! Look what happened!!" I shouted by imagining worse scenarios and he flinched. I looked at the fragile face which is afraid of me. I kneeled down and grabbed both of his hands with mine in one and the other laid on top of his head, caressing it.
"I'm sorry. Sorry. Sorry. When I saw you laying on the road wounded, I can't breathe at that moment, my world started to spin and all I felt is pain right here, here" I placed one of his hand on my chest nd continued, "It felt like dying, I can't- I-" my voice cracked, breathing became uneven, eyes were teary.
Liam caught me off guard, silencing me with a hug.
His small gestures made me feel alive. Out of everything, his warmth is all I needed.
That's where I realised,
I like him.
Scratch that! I love him.
~*~
"So, the topic for Damien is... Love. The mic is all yours."
"Thank you sir. I feel great to participate in this on the spot speech competition out of my comfort zone, or I can say I was compelled by someone," I said and looked directly into Liam's eyes and his face turned tomato.
Is he blushing? Fk.
He can't do this to me now!
"Well... Love is familiar to me since I'm in love," I grinned from ear to ear. Some people were shocked and half girls were about to cry. Many started to guess the girlfriend of mine.
"Love is not a term. It's something we can't define or explain. It's is a pure form of joy and more. Only the person who is in love can prove us wrong that love isn't what you read in romance novels. Love is sort of unpredictable and complicated that no one can put up into words. Even the confessions, flowers, gifts, sex and wedding rings can't explain the feelings of one, feel for the other. The phrase 'love is blind' makes more sense when you fall for someone. Love will amaze you. You may find yourself change in a better way. It will help you discover the unknown side of yours.
Love is hard when you take it mentally but at the same time society makes it even more difficult for an individual or both. We live in such a judgemental society and you all know how hard it is to survive and live on our own. Do I even need to elaborate about the looks we get when we love same sex?" I stole a glance of Liam's face before continuing and the people's gossip became wild as I ignored their stares and silly comments.
"We can't walked out with an attitude like 'I don't care folks'. Accept it or not, deep down we all know we do care about others thoughts and opinions. It's all in your hands to stay strong and surround ourself by supportive people," I made a quick eye contact with my brother who had a 'I'm-kinda-impressed-and-hella-proud' smile on his face.
I never spoke this much. Not once in my life. I used to reply only with two to three words to my brother. I'm not a social type, I don't have friends and I never made an attempt to talk with anybody.
'Should I write a book called Dark mysteries of Damien Smith? If I did in the future, this question will be placed first! How can Damien speak more than one sentence only to Liam?'
Says my brother.
"Love is not about apperance in the first place. Who cares whether it's a boy or girl, rich or poor, perfect or handicap, black or white? If two souls fell for eachother, it's called love. My definition for love," I noticed Liam's tears blurring his vision.
I made him cry while multitasking.
Conveying my undying love, coming out of closet, proposing my own theories, overcoming stage fear, discovering a new side of mine, experiencing the spotlight, learning to ignore people's stereotypical thoughts on the spot, Indirectly thanking my brother, pouring my inner feelings, spitting facts and much more.
I forgot that I am in a competition.
"You know, love isn't all about feelings. It depends upon the two individuals and how they work it out by trusting eachother. Like I already said, being together is not easy but understanding and patience is the key and strength, the miracle you expect. Feelings do play major role but life rules it, heart plays it and mind apply theories. We wish to ride our life smooth but it won't be possible only if you think and respond according to the problems practically and sometimes being logical. Knowing to play your cards at the right time makes you mature and helps you to survive without any war between your twisted thoughts.
Love is a lucky card that can bring back a dead soul alive. It will make your life meaningful and colourful. In other words, you will live your life, the fullest.
But, we can't change the fact that heart and hopes are meant to be broken. Broken is broken, so better act smart at these point of time. I may sound stupid but once you experience it, you will definitely feel like 'I wish I know it sooner'. Better take this as a warning 'cause you won't be aware of the door you are unlocking on your own, the door called 'broken hearts.'"
A man broke my brother's heart and my brother would not be alive today if it wasn't for me. He lost his happiness and there is nothing I can do to fix him. I can't bring my brother back.
He is half dead already.
"Broken is unpredictable, complicated, an untellable feelings just like love, expect love is heaven and broken is hell. Everyone faces the edge or the breaking point once in their life by love, so better use both of your mind and heart simultaneously to handle things because we all know that heart can't handle pain and mind can't think straight but heart knows what to do and mind don't do feelings so make sure to use well of it's advantages. It will lead you to your love. Don't force yourself in a relationship.
Broken is more than worse and losing a part of yourself doesn't make the whole you, you. Time may heal or may not but love can definitely heal your wounds, stick back the uncollectable pieces and will eventually bring back the old you. Love can do both the miracles of break and heal, so trust me, love is worth the risk. You see, I'm willing to risk it. Love is painful than being beautiful but believe me, love is worth the pain. I may get hurt but I won't give up. Falling in love will discard the reality and get you into a whole new world. It will fullfill your soul with hapiness and make you feel complete. The things you are longing for, the warmth and freedom will be granted by love. Love will make your life worthy and it will make you worthy. It's all depends on L.O.V.E," I ended my speech and the whole stadium was affected by my words.
Their encouraging claps made me proud of myself.
I'm getting addicted to their support,
support for love.
My love.
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