I've dated guys so many times now but it didn't last long. They ended it themselves and sometimes I do. It's not because there's a problem about us it's just I can't feel a thing for the other person. My heart doesn't race when I'm around him, I don't feel anxious when he talks to others and I also can't feel a sense of affection towards a person. In short, I don't feel a thing for the guys a dated not even a little bit
BZZZ BZZZZ
"oh a call" I pick up my phone
"who is it?" I asked on the other line
"You said you were looking for a hot but also cute guy right?" It's Mikkie my gay friend
"Yes, any luck?" I was waiting for his answer
I'm lonely and I want to feel happy, spoiled and pampered by someone that's why Into finding someone
"Well yeah there's this guy that wants to meet you right away" He said
"Really?" I'm not excited mostly just wanted to know if this might be it
"Come to XX to get to know him"
"Ok" I ended the call" Hmm...would it be different this time?
This is the last time I'm going to find my someone
I gone to XX bar
"Hello"
"Uh hello are you that guy?" He has blonde hair with pretty hot looks and a firm smile with eyes that's pretty confident with himself
"Yes, I am"He look at me from head to toe
"Not bad" Is he looking down on me? whatever
"Uh...so you a masochist"
I suddenly covered my mouth I just blurted something out of the blue
He put I serious face
Will I get rejected right away?
His lips form a smile and then laughs
"hahahaha" He looks fascinated by me
"Ahahhaha , sorry that came out wrong" I apologies and sit besides him
"It's ok, your pretty interesting"
BADUMP
Why did my heart suddenly pound so loud like that? And now my face is burning from just seeing him laugh like this makes my heart warm....gahhh what is this!!!?
"Stop flattering me?" I said while nervous
"No, seriously your pretty interesting to have been single for that long"
"Hey is that comment or an insult" I pouted while saying it
"I don't know" He smiled warmly
"Hahahaha" I laughed hard as I can... I've been taking things seriously from the beginning that I haven't even consider what I felt...I guess I should take thing easy. The guy for me will come right? or maybe he already did
"HAHAHHA"
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