every words hurts that you don't realise that you hurt somebody's feelings even me I know my mother said to work hard study hard to make me proud but .....when time goes by working hard and studying harder to make you proud of me but then your mouth say "why can't you be like your brother he's studying hard and working hard" mom said "but" I said in a scared tone in my mind why I did everything I work hard study hard I even had a depression while I'm working hard and studying hard maybe I'm not good enough and you want a daughter that is perfect , "you should be like Lia she's talented unlike you you're not good at everything maybe you should marry a rich man" mom shouted at me, I ran fast to my room and slowly closed the door and cry while hugging my pillow closer to me in my mind why mom I'm your daughter maybe hiding my pain is the best and cry to make the pain go away by bit , and then I cried secretly every day because of the words that my mom said and it keeps saying to my mind that I'm not good enough and perfect the pain that I'm feeling right now keep me drowning in a deep ocean I hide my sadness in my smile and I try not to cry in front of you so that I can be a good daughter and a perfect daughter to you so I kept working hard and studying hard for you so that I can't be compared to anyone my best friend Lia is always there and in school they keep my smile even though it's fake they don't know that I'm hurting inside but every time they notice they make me there family and making me happy they are my best friend's mom don't you know that I envy Lia because you always praise her but I didn't heared that you didn't even praise me not even once or twice even you embarrassed me Infront of them but you didn't even care a little bit I cry always cry every night because I love you mom if it means that I need to hide my tears for you because I love you cause you gave me life even if you don't want me I just wanted to hear you say to me that " I'm proud of you my daughter" but it's not I'm just imagining every time you might think that I'm coward yes I'm scared because I had no one in my side I was always alone
