My soul are empty as well as now.
the world inside the Covid-19 pendemic ...
it's about my life as usual but changing.
I want my life to be as happy as ordinary people go.
But.. it's just a dream.
Everyone want a happy life.
I do too.
when I think my life is empty, I will crying.
I hope I am just a normal person.
I will try not to cry.
I was been hated by many people.
I was trying to make them happy......
The more I make people happy I'll be happy too..
but...
I never be happy.
although it was my birthday.
I will not be as usual.
When one day... I listen to a song title "Abyss" (By Jin BTS) ... It was a good song to make people feel better and chill.
Or make people sad. When everyone around me was hated me and ask me to do their work...
I'll do it. Without any reason.
when I thinking about my life in my room...
I was crying so hard and make me to hate myself.
But... As an ARMY (BTS Fan) I will never forget what Namjoon told me before.
My heart is broken now.
I never thought that I will be a hated person in my House.
They all never give me a support.
Include my mother and father.
they just have a lot of work and just ignore me.
"It's okay I'm still okay" "if everyone hate me.. what I can do?... " "I think I just should go out from my home" "It's okay no one care about me"
I thinking it back.... "is it just me care about them or I just...."
My sister told me that I am a trash. "it's okay, she maybe just made a joke"
it's was night and I just crying all night.
Until this day.
I know someone will give me a better life soon.
that was my hope and... I hope I deserve a good day soon.
