"Noooo!!!!"
I gasped as I rose from my bed. I was lost in thought that I didn't notice the tears that are running on my cheeks.
I hugged myself. Maybe if I didn't leave him, I will never feel this kind of sorrow. I'm so stupid for leaving him behind.
I just want to sleep forever never waking up from this hellish reality.
"Oh God please take me back"
I sobbed as I prayed that He'd give me a second chance to see him again for the last time. Please just this time.
"Mom?"
I stopped crying as I heard him calls me.
My child who's a splitting image of him. I looked at him and it made my heart ache more.
Every time I wake from that dream I always cry without realising I have his child. I always prayed that this agony will stop killing me every night.
I wiped my tears and clears my throat.
"Yes, honey?"
"Are you crying again, mom?" He curiously asked as his head popped up in the small space between the frame of the door.
"No baby. I'm not." I lied.
"But I heard you crying, mommy."
I was lost in silence.
"I can sleep beside you mommy if you want so your nightmares will go away."
He said as he approached me in the bed. I can not stop my tears from falling. He's so sweet like him. How can I move forward if I'll always see him?
He stretched his arms and wiped my tears. My baby who takes care of me. I'm so ashamed of myself.
I lifted him and hugged him tightly as if I'll lose him if I even loosened my grip on him.
"Mommy don't cry. Daddy said he'll see you soon." I gasped as I heard him say that.
"Wha-what do you mean?" my body trembled as I reach my son's face. Looking through his eyes seeing if it is really my son.
"He said he is coming"
How can it be possible?
