You know that feeling? when your mother (maybe the person you love the most in the whole world) Says stuff like
one day I'll leave and never come back..or stuff about abounding..
A fear develops about your close one's leaving you... fear of being lonely
or maybe like you are so expensive to keep, I kill my own happiness just for you, you are exhausting
.....That feeling where you just feel like a burden.. existential crisis often happens...feel like su!ciding..
maybe... You are too tall, too short, too thin, too fat..
insecurities...
emotional blackmailing.. "if you don't wanna ruin the family reputation then don't do it".. why am I living? just to please other people? guardian of my family's reputation?....
ALWAYS.. comparing to other children, she's better in studies than you, her grades are higher.. why aren't you like her??... I know I'm not the ideal daughter for you.. but you never appreciate how I'm better than so many other teens, some deal drügs, some suìcide etc. I DON'T WANT TO BE AN IDEAL DAUGHTER, I DON'T WANNA LIVE A LIFE JUST TO PLEASE OTHERS, I DON'T WANNA BE A DOLL, I DON'T WANNA BE A ROBOT
what will people say? what will people people people, what about me?? what about my feelings? am I that worthless? just puppet that "people" controls.
sometimes I hate you but I can't because I love you so much, but you pretend like I don't care at all.
never satisfied with my grades, always expecting higher
never good enough..
but I still love you mom <3
