"Ahaha"
".........."
Yoon Heegyeom laughed. The corners of his mouth rose, and his lips arched, revealing his white teeth. There was a small sound as if the wind was flowing through my ears, but he was definitely smiling.
It's been a long time since I saw this pure smile in front of me. Back then, when I didn't know my true feelings, when I was with him, when we only met to mix our bodies. At that time, other than that, what else do we do? I remember we ate together and talked about our daily life. But was he laughing? Wait, has he ever laughed? I do not remember.
It was his smile that made me fall in love with him. That expression got me intoxicated for the first time in my life, thinking it was something I needed to get rid of. I felt like that was the only time I'd ever seen it..
No, it's the second time. He also made that face at the end of his movie. Of course, it wasn't a smile for me. It was a bit different, but still, it made it hard to breathe. My whole body was stiffened, and my legs were losing their strength.
They were the best expressions I've ever seen on Yoon Heegyeom.
Beautiful... I always love it. My eyes were throbbing. I feel like I'm about to cry...
Angry, yelling, and suspicious. I only remember those expressions when he's with me.
I felt lost at that moment. I thought I had finally found my way after a long time of running wildly down the crooked and twisted road I'd made, but somehow the end seemed to be a cliff. I don't think I'll be able to find my way back in that tangled mess, so the only way left is to fall.
I really don't know anymore. 'Now... what the hell should I do?"
What I really want and what I should feel. I don't have any clue. I like you. I want you. But
I doubted him and couldn't believe him. But at the same time, I don't want to let him go. Even if it's just an act, even if it's revenge, I'll accept it. That's how I decided it... I kept replaying his face, drenched with joy in my mind. It was never going to be mine. No
matter how I tried to fix my mistake, I don't think Yoon Heegyeom can forget the past. In
the end, what I genuinely wanted was Yoon Heegyeom's happiness. It was something I
could never give you. I'm the one who broke it with my two hands.
If he smiles brightly at me, I would doubt it. I couldn't distinguish between it being an act or that was he truly felt. I got tired of figuring out his intentions. I felt like giving up.
