i always blabber my feelings here when I'm deeply hurt, it's not a story, nor will my postory make you feel any better.
I waked up, just to know I had to face something good...I thought I healed but ugh! pain is in true love with me.. no matter what I do... everyone has to misunderstand something... my Love is not something I wanna have uncomfortable chats with... one night stand? all life stand or even it's filled with love...I started to disgust because a girl tried to touch me in real life and recently my net feed is full of r@pe things which disgust me of that shit...I don't wanna smile, pout, cry or feel heavy to breathe...I have a habit of not sharing anything to anyone... right now even if I'm crying and I see somebody crying... I'll just motivate that person... when was I wrong? I do not like toxic people who just want me to stay with them to get hurt and ignored...I assure I'm not a toy... and a person who tries to run away when I'm giving efforts I hate that, I'm used to it but I'm not going to ignore it...I can see it feel it, hear it... you just need to know before being my freind... you will never know me...I don't make teary eyes or crying emoji until I really want to be pampered I'm a person... with self respect I handle myself and want people to know that if somebody is smiling... while you did a mistake, your crying won't let them forget it... they can forgive but not forget. everything is clear as crystal or blurry!... so stay away... until you really wanna be close....I was screaming yesterday... and today... and ig it's been a week I'm tensed... I'm used to sharing... not giving up loving secretly... if u are freind to me, you are important and I'm sure none of my freinds till now is disappointed except 2 expections...
-leisha, snow
