It was another normal day. I told myself I wouldn’t fall in love again and feel heartbroken by my one sided love. There were times I thought it was all infatuation but now that I think about it may be not. Instead I was trying to convince myself that it was an attraction and I didn’t deserve you and that I didn’t deserve to fall in love with anyone. But maybe I really did loved you. It’s been three years since you moved out. There were times when I was madly crushing on you that I created fake scenarios of us together. Maybe they will remain fake itself. There were times we talked for the first time, how we made jokes and laughed. At first I thought I was attracted to your face but then I realized we did have moments I remember. One the last day, I was going around asking for farewell signs not knowing it would be the last time we would meet and the next meeting would be after 3 years. You wrote my name and wrote beautiful. Did my heart flutter? Yes it did. Did I imagine our future? Yes I did. Man, I wish I could ever say I loved you (Idk about my current feelings). The day we met out of school coincidently was honestly a really nice day. I just wanted to run away from you afraid that you would recognize me and you did. You waved at me and I waved back. After being apart for years I thought I got over you but then I saw you again after three years face to face, I tried running away from my feelings, tried running away from you who keeps attracting me, tried ignoring you cause I didn’t want to be in love but love just happens. We can’t decide to stop it from happening. Maybe one day I could get you or get over you. I want to be ready for either of them. Whenever our eyes met I always looked away in the span of a few seconds. Damn I tried stopping my feelings by ignoring you but deep down I was blushing. Is it just teenage love or more that that? I wonder if we could ever have a future. Because you never know. My dear crush
