14-02-2012
Its like my whole body was frozen. I couldn't move. I just laid there as he had his way. I didnt know what was going on. I had heard of such stories but no one had ever told me what to do if it ever happened to me. I wished it was a dream so i closed my eyes tight and after sometime he left. I sat there crying.. I felt so heartbroken and helpless.
The next day I told my mum I wasn't feeling fine and didn't want to go to school. She didnt ask any questions and just let me stay. But told me she would be taking the kids out later... I just wanted to be alone. An hour after she left, the bell rang. I rushed to the door thinking she was the one, but my face suddenly grew pale. It was her husband. I ran away and locked myself up in my room and wished I had gone to school.
Bang bang. He knocked at my door. But I told him I didn't want to speak to him.
He said he was sorry for what happened yesterday. then said "its because I love you very much and thats just a way of expressing my feelings"... all I could feel was disgust hearing such words coming from him. I didnt respond and just went to sleep..
As soon as my mum returned he told her I was being naughty and locked myself up in my room. Well my mum didn't even asked me what happened told me to open the door and slapped me..and said
"you owe him respect, he'syour dad".
I didn't reply I just went back into my room. She took my keys so I could no longer key my door. From that day on every night was a nightmare. I had no one to speak to... not even my mum. My siblings and her husband had become her number one priority. I no longer went on holidays.. my life had become so miserable that I only thought of ending it. I wasn't doing well at school talk less of the house. My mum scolded me every single day. I do not hate her though. I don't even have the energy to
