What part of life gives you the happiest memory you can ever think of? What part of life makes you feel you have a great worth here on Earth? What part life makes you feel loved by everyone you thought would love you? to me nothing dose all those parts has left me ever since I was a child hoping that one day I'll wake up and see some sweet memories of myself buh all I see is pain ,anger and disappointment.. Am Bella Styles a lonely girl always wishing for the day I'll find my parents and be happy again what am I thinking I can't cause hopes are dummies and I can't be one💔...
walking down the street when I bumped into Ryan this kid that keeps bothering me in school....
"Bella wait " he said
"What do you want Ryan? .... I've told you stay away from me" I replied walking away
"I can't.... I can't stay away from love" I stopped shocked at what he said "I may sound crazy but I love you... ever since that drama night I can't stop thinking about you...."
"You are out of your mind...... you can't love me ok. why can't you just stop all this madness I don't love you...."
"I know you do ok I know but you don't wanna listen to your heart that's why you are saying all this to me . Bella let me help you fight this pain"
"pain? what do you know about pain? nothing you know nothing at all... it's something I wish to wake up every morning and feel happy again buh can't pain and depression takes along time to heal and buh mine can never heal."
"there's one thing I learnt from my mom and that is *holding on to what pulls you back won't make you feel better but worse everyday of your life* and that's what you're doing holding on to the pain"
" Your part of pain doesn't solve my problem buh adds to every part of it do me a favor and ask your mom if she have ever being abandoned by the ones she've loved?"
"I can't" he replied
"And why is that?" I asked
"cause she's dead" he said dose words hit me, I became speechless after what he said " I may sound selfish buh I want you to walk away from everything holding you....start a new life and be happy you deserve better in life " he said coming close to me who didn't know what to say after everything.. "Be happy with me 🥺" he added looking up he pulled me into a kiss a calm kiss pulling back "I always wished you'll be happy"
"Ryan you....."Amazed at what happened did he just fucking kiss me😲 holy shit he did
"Please give me a chance I promise....." I turned running away fast as I could getting home I didn't say hi to Aunt Linda, rushed to my room banging the door falling on the floor crying .Is this it? is this what life is all about? .😥
