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This time , I'm just trying to Express my feelings although I don't know if I will be able to express it well or not cuz I don't even understand this feelings . I have never felt like this before.... I don't know what this is but when I am with you I talk a bit more , I smile a bit more and I laugh a bit louder .... When I am with you I just don't care about anything else but you . When I am with you I will just talk non-stop and sometimes I don't even let you speak..... Don't think it's because I don't care . actually I just want to make a space in your heart . I just want to share my everything with you . It's okay if you don't understand this feelings of mine... you don't have to notice it.... I just want you to stay with me a little longer . Talk with me a little more . Meet with me a little often ..... I don't want anything else .... Just seeing you makes me happy.... your smile make my day beautiful.... You don't have to know this things.... Just stay by my side and don't leave . Actually sometimes I also want to touch you . Sometimes I want to feel you . But you are just like that shinning star . I can only see you from far .... I know you will let me hold your hands... Cuz you take me as your friend ...?! But I'm not sure if I wanna be one. So I will try to keep my distance. Sometimes I feel so much down , sometimes I want someone with me . Maybe you will appear in front of me that times but Sorry ! I will ignore you... cuz I don't wanna fall anymore deeply it's already enough to make me crazy... I don't know what to do . I'm not sure what's my feelings are.... I don't know what the meaning of this . I even don't know what I'm doing right now... But I can't stop this feelings . It's confusing me all the time . I miss you.... I miss you in my down time... I feel alone and so lonely.... I wanna see your smile... It's just like a shinny , Sunny and bright day . It's makes me happy. Yeah , just staying by your side makes me happy . By your side I will just forgot all of my pain . With you I feel secure . if It's you , I can left all my worries and hopes on your hand You makes me unconsciously carving for this Sense of secure all the time . I feel the warmness I want in your hands. I'm carving for that warmness.... I know I'm not special to you . You are sweet to everyone . You care about everyone . Even if you don't like in the deep down you won't say it . With a bright smile in your face you will just accept everything . You always act carefree , just like you don't care , just like it doesn't matter . But you will work hard for the things you want . You will take care of the people you love . I love it . I admire you . I like you just like what you are . And even if you change in future I think I will still like you . Cuz I have already fell so deep that, it's not easy to wake up now... But I don't wanna say it. cuz I know I am not good at explaining. And I will never be able to Express my feelings properly ..... And I don't wanna lose you . Even if we are not close in the future I will be happy just by seeing you from far ... It's already more than enough for me ....
To tell the truth , I don't actually had a friend before... so I don't understand the feelings of having a best friend by your side . And I have never dated anyone . I don't have a boyfriend . So I don't even understand the feeling of love . I just wanna be by your side .
I will just let you decide what you wanna call this feelings . I will just let you decide a name for this.... But Will you really stay by my side ?!!!!!!!??
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