I'm so done with everything.
I'm tired of crying every night. I'm so tired of getting up. I'm tired of doing my duties, my responsibilities. I'm tired of putting effort to keep up on all the expectations they've put on my plate. Tired of fighting and acting that everything's fine. I'm not fine at all. It feels like there's something that restricted me from doing something more than what I didn't know that I'm capable of, like the feeling that you have the ability to go anywhere you want to but something is trapping you in one place, almost reminding you that you're not the one in control of deciding that. It's suffocating.
One day, I was scrolling on my phone and saw a post that recommends manhwas, manhua, comics and etc. to read. That's when everything started to flow differently on my life and I felt this light feeling as I started to read. I've read the content of the book like it was something that my life depends on. As I'm halfway of it's content, I realized I've been breathing normally, NORMALLY! My head aches are gone! I was surprised....and I felt happy. I was overwhelmed with emotions that I started to cry. After coming back to my senses, I wiped those joyful tears away and decided to finish reading the book.
I finished reading everything. I closed my eyes and breathed softly. I began to create vague images on my mind, replicating the character of the book. I imagined him wearing his favorite boots, made of leather with a pattern of gold. He's an adventurer, something I wish I could be but can't. I fell in love.... unexpectedly with this very man, what could be worst is that he only exist in the deepest roots of my fantasy. I gently lift my eyelids, showing determination on my eyes. I turned my phone on, and typed the title of the book I was reading. There I saw, "Volume II......". Looks like someone's not sleeping for tonight. I smiled brightly and thought, I finally found it, 'Reading is my only Redemption on this Life'.
A/N (1): I'm planning to write a book with this idea. So what do you guys think?
A/N (2): This isn't really the complete version of what I'm planning to be the first chapter of the book because the whole content of this (incomplete) is more on telling than showing (if you know, you know). I wanted to write a book that had both showing and telling technique (just wanted to try it for fun). Oh and btw, the book would be fantasy-romance (;reincarnation) genre. I would be grateful for any thoughts or opinion you have about this plan. Thank you<33
