Having friends is very cool but only some are LOYAL
YK YOU WILL HAVE 40 FRIENDS IN SCHOOL
THEN 30 IN HIGH SCHOOL
THEN 20 IN COLLEGE
THEN ONLY THOSE 5 IDIOTS IN UNI VERSITY
FRIENDSHIP IS A BEAUTIFUL THING BUT ONLY SOME GET TOO EXPERIENCE IT. HHAHAH i dont know why why. But iam missing my friend soooooooo much back to the topic. So actually i have a friend named umm lets change the name for privacy. Um... Ok lets name her lana so yep Lana when i first came in thier class she was the topper and ofc like everyone i enveyed her alot as aim not that smart. You guys surely know the pressure about studys and grades etc.
Well she and me became good friends and i opened up to her i thought she matched the way "I AM" BUT DAMN DUDE I WAS F****NG WRONG!!. Well i was very close with her.
Note: i was always an introverted kid and also very mature. And never really had friends so yep.
I actually felt safe with her i told her everything about me. Abd from everything i mean like "EVERY THING" AND SHE ALSO HAD A FRIEND NAMED UM... LETS GOK WITH JENNIFER so they were friends from childhood. So um..... As lana's good friend i was i had make that Jennifer my friend tooo. And guess what?? I Did! (well that was one if the most stupid est thing i have ever done. God iam soo embarrassed ugh! You dont even know) well back to the storyy.
Me and Jennifer wer eum.. Kinda oKAy friends you know soo. Lana trusted jennifer. Alot then me i was hurt cause as bieng introver t all my life u wasnt good at socializing but they were! I always kinda felt left out... But didnt shiw it. Every time lana brang the social thing and stuff she was like fircing me into these shits like if i didn't do it she be like. Umm iam gonna think about keepin this friend ship. Yep it happened almost 10 times. But u ignored. And i one day had enough i told both of them i wanana break this frndship and i did. Know the sometimes approach me but as bieng a suga baised i always insult the hell out of em. But it still
It still hurts seeing them happy i always feel my chest tighten up and teaes always welled up in my bambi eyes. I hate everything i just. Too much pain is there for me just pray that i will get a good frnd sooner ir later. May you never gok through this pain.
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