Have you ever loved someone so deeply that it makes you crazy?
Have you been moving on but still think about him a few more times?
Have u felt that unexplainable feelings that u want to cry just because of that someone?
Would you care to read my little experience on moving on?
please bear my silly grammars and spellings.
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April 26.
I can't get him out of my mind.
I miss him so much.
This is a torture for me.
I love you. I like you.
But i was the one who ended our relationship.
Why am i always thinking of you?
I hate that i keep thinking of you
I hate that i miss you so bad
I hate that you removed your own posts that mentions me
I hate how someone already said she loves you and treasures you unlike me.
I hate how you liked her posts.
I hate this feeling, how do i cure this shitty feeling?
Am i the only one suffering for the both of us?
I said I'll be over you soon but why do i keep checking your profile and posts? Why do i keep stalking you one after another?
I hate you, because u made me feel this way. I never knew missing someone so bad is a torture, i never knew loving someone is such a suffering one if u don't talk anymore.
I always smiled when reading our past conversation, i miss you so bad. But i know this is better than having a relationship when im the only one still loving you. I knew you're getting tired over me, i know im a boring person. But i can't change it, i know all of my own pictures always has a filter, i know its because im ugly,insecure,boring,and weird. But missing someone is akin to changing the likes and dislikes nothing can change it or stop it I'm sorry but I just can't stop missing u.
May 7.
The more i think about it the more i thought maybe we really are meant for each other? But ha. Its just my imagination.
May 17.
I said, ill forget you from now on.
But im still not over you. Please let me forget you i dont want to suffer anymore.. i dont want to get attached anymore. How can i move on when you're always popping everytime on my mind?
Aug 15.
Haha.. its been months and here i am, still missing someone, why am i so inlove with you? There's nothing i like about you but i always think about you, i dont know what types of men i like aslong as its you, but i really don't know what i love and like about you! Just let me move on dang it.
Sep 3.
Its almost Christmas.. haha, i hate him. I hate him. I hate him for making me like this, meeting you was my biggest regret, I should've just ignored you back then and continued just playing by myself. If i hadn't met him I won't be like this, i cant get over you why? Is it because i have so many firsts with you? Its my first time romantically loving someone, first time I've truly became myself, first time to be so clingy i had never been that clingy myself but why.. when it comes to you i feel like im so different? Well i did changed when i met you. But i met so many people before you but i never ever really changed that much, only after i met you, ha.. im so crazily in love with you and you don't even know it.
Ill try my best to forget your very own existence, and try focusing on my academics more seriously. maybe that will help me to stop thinking of you? Although I'll be more stressed out. but aslong as i get rid of this thorn in my chest that hurts like hell. maybe just maybe ill forget you slowly.
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Hai! I really wanted to let these out.
It's about how i felt when i first experienced this kind of things. it started when i was in highschool. Its an online love i guess? As u can see im a sucker when it comes to love. i get attached easily but not that quickly. ever since i was young i love writing out my own pent up feelings. it was actually my first time to love someone deeply and get over it for so damn long when i haven't even met him irl
Im still moving on T^T gosh, he must've had me in a ritual! damn him.
