*(pls don't mind grammar mistake)
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Is it common,is it alright
I am 17 years old ,l am living with my family.i love my dad mom and sister.me and my sister studied in a private school.in our area parents don't put so much money and care for girl child.but, now that i completed my high school my father even let me study what i needed which cost than our limit..but there is something i hate so much,that's is my father's drinking habit🍷.he is drunker.i only saw him sober for few times since i born. that also because of his health issue.
Not only he drink everyday and he also fight with mother.they both fight most of the day. sometime he beat my mother.but he love us so much. one day when i blocked him and scold him for beating my mother and he strangled me.he even speak harsh words when he is not sober and he spoke normally the next day as nothing happened. i hated him to the core.is it because as a girl child we need to be grateful for him for providing food and education.
Even my sister gets marriedat the age of 18 ,its an arrange marriage , she loved another guy(high school love) but she broke up with him and marry the guy who is 10 yrs older than her becaus my parents insist (he is my sister's childhood crush), when i asked her did she really like him (she said yes) but i don't like that marriage .
After sometimes i realized that my sister really loved the guy she married and totally forget the guy she loved in her highschool .but she still feel bad for him .
you know something i felt very guilty for that guy and my sister because of me my parents insist my sister to get married .it means we both are girl child in our family so they insist her to get married because she is elder . i am more guilty now because she can't study but i can and she have to get married and have take responsibility but i don't have to becaus i am younger.do you guys think it's fair for her.
And my mother's life is even more tragery atleast my sister got a gentleman who loves her and adores her so much but mother's life is a living hell.my mom's father also a very bad who doesn't take responsibility for his wife and goes to another women leavinghis sick wife behind.So my mother thought her life is better . but i think her life is a hell and now she is in brink (always think about sucide ).but she is living for me. my father love her in his his way but he is bully when he is drunk she even cannot divorce him.....
He drink everyday with his salary and we have so much debit so we sell our properties which was pass down by our grandfather. but he still don't quit his drinking habit.
i totally hate being in relationship or marriage because of the way my father treating my mother
