MY ONLY EXCITEMENT

"Hey, YOU!!!!! STOP wandering around me LIKE A STUPID GHOST"!!, a frustrated guy yelled at a girl in front of all the students who were present at canteen at that time. And, definitely all the students heard and saw him yelling at her and yet, none of them dared to defend the girl and, the girl who was being yelled at, just kept standing in front of that guy, holding her bagpack in a way that half of her face was being covered with it.......

"Please"!, He continued...... "Just---just stop *sigh*, stop being so annoying and have some self-respect. PLEASE"!!, he said while looking directly into her eyes....but the girl was avoiding making any eye contact with him....

.........."As I have already told you a hundred times to stay away from me, you can take THIS ONE as my last warning to you. So, stop stalking me, now"!!!, saying this, he left the library and while leaving, he slightly pushed the girl by shoulder.....

....."After he left, all the students started giving weird looks to the girl while talking about the incident. But, no one thought, even once, about comforting the girl"......

........."AND, THE GIRL I AM TALKING ABOUT IS....ME, MYSELF"!!........

..."And, the incident that I am sharing with you guys is almost 4-5 weeks old"!!

*Sigh*....."I am Mia, a 17 years old ambiverted girl. Well, I don't live with my parents anymore as after they got divorced, my mother got my custody. And notably, only after one year, she married another man. I HATED THAT! And, I never really got to know the real reason that why my parents decided to end things like that. One day, I talked to my mother about it and asked her if I could rent an apartment or something because I wanted to spend some time alone and surprisingly she agreed. So, speaking of now, she pays my apartment rent......Talking about school, I never really liked going to school for my entire 13 years of student-life and I was a never a regular student too. And, I only had one friend at school and her name is Claudia. Even if she was really very caring towards me. But still, she neither became the reason for me to go to school nor did she ever made me feel any excitement about any school activity....'BUT, HE SURELY DID'..."!!

The first time I saw him, he was inside the principal's office, with his father I guess. And, he really caught my eyes. Even if it was my first time seeing him but still, seeing him was like, as if I got a reason to come to school regularly. I was struck by his beauty. He was tall, had messy hair, his voice was husky and raspy and his aura was just as I imagined it to be...He was just so beautiful to be true.....

"Is he----Is he even real"!!, I murmured to myself, but Claudia somehow heard it, pulled me to her side and replied, "Girl, he is REAL. And before you start fangirling over him, let me tell you one thing......He is NOT, A GOOD GUY, okay?! And yeah, that's one of the reasons why he is standing inside the principal's office right now. So, select some other guy to fangirl over, okay?! It's for your own betterment. Okay bye, I have a class to attend"!!, saying this she started walking towards her class.....

We both waved at each other before she went inside her class. As I turned around to look at him for the last time before going to my class, I suddenly bumped into a tall figure and fell down on the floor....

*GASP*......*THUD*

.....Yeah, he was that guy...

"Tsk..Are you blind or something. Can't you even walk properly"!!, that guy yelled at me and while he was yelling, I was just staring at him, getting more and more mesmerized by his beauty....

"Oh God!! Shut it", his father asked him to stay quiet and turned to me and said, "I am so sorry dear, from his side".....He also helped me getting up. But, I guess he (the guy), was already very frustrated so he just left, leaving his father behind. After getting up, I thanked him (the father) and he also left......But, I was disappointed now, because the meeting between that guy and me was not as I expected it to be, not even a bit.....

But, while making myself understand that it was not a big deal, I just went inside my class.....

After school, I was at home, sitting on my bed, listening to some relaxing music with a cup of tea and still thinking about what happened at school the same day. Then, I suddenly remembered that I still don't know his name.....

"Sshh!! How come I still don't know his name. Hmm, should I ask Claudia?!!.*thinking*....Fine"!!, I finally decided to text Claudia...

"Hey, What are you doing"?, I texted. And almost after ten minutes, my phone vibrated and without wasting any time, I grabbed my phone. And, it was Claudia's text saying, "Nothing much, but isn't it strange that you texted me first, like, for the first time"!!, Then, she again sent a text.....

"So, I assume that you need some help. Right?! What is it, tell me"?!

"Well, yes I need your help. Actually, Do you know that guy's name who was inside the principal's office today"??, I replied......

"Oh Mia. Did you really develop a crush on that guy"!!, she replied, and suddenly she called me... And eventually, I picked it up...

"Hello, Mia. Well, look, I actually know his name and I can even tell you but before that, I wanna tell you that he----", I was feeling as if she was just wasting my time so, I just cut her sentence in between and said, "Yes, I know he is not a good boy. You told me this at school. But, can I just know his name for now, please"?!

"*Sigh*...Fine------Look, we don't get to spend that much time together but that does not mean that I don't care for you, okay! That's why, I was just trying to----------*sigh*, Okay fine. His name is Sebastian. Happy now, but, Mia, listen to me carefully.......He is the bad guy of the whole school. Are you understanding me? Tsk, I am not able to explain this thing properly like this. Wait, I'll tell you about him in detail tomorrow at school or maybe after school. Okay"??, she sounded so confused while saying all this.....But still, I agreed to it and then we hung up the call........

"SeBAsTiAN" *Deep sigh*.....*Light giggles*....I don't know why, but I was suddenly getting shy only by mouthing that name. And, only even thinking about him, was making me smile. It was happening to me for the first time. So, It was kind of weird at first.....But, it was just so exciting that I didn't think that it was wrong in any way......"It wasn't, right"??

......The next day, at school. As I was walking down the stairs after attending my third lecture, someone tapped my right shoulder. Somehow, even before turning around, my heartbeat got faster. But to my dismay, it was Claudia......with her chubby smile...

"Hiiii"!!, she greeted me...

"Hi".....I repeated...

"What is with your mood ? You OK"?!, she asked, but, how could I tell her that I expected someone else to be behind me and not her....So, I just nodded to convey that I was OK....So, she continued...

"OK fine. So, it's your recess. Right"?!.....she asked, to which I replied "Yes"....

"So, let's go together, then"!!....She insisted going to canteen together. So, we started walking and she continued to talk and I continued to listen......And, when we were eating our meal, she suddenly started talking about Sebastian and I felt my ears getting hotter and hotter.....

"Mia, actually yesterday when I was saying that Sebastian is not a good guy. What I really meant was that he is in the bad books of every professor....and even students"...She said while she was chewing on her burger....But, when I didn't reacted and didn't replied, she said, "Are you even in this freaking UNIVERSE, MIA"!!!!!!!.....Ummm, yeah, she yelled at me....

"Yes, yes. I am listening. Please continue"...I said, but, she got angry at me and stopped talking........And to be honest, I liked that silence more than her continuously talking...After eating, we went to our classes but she didn't even waved at me like the normal days, but its fine....

As I was on my way to my class, I saw a group of boys laughing and hitting someone who was inside that circle of the whole crowd. I almost ignored it but, I stopped when I thought I saw HIM....

I tried to have a better look at what was happening and then I realized that, the group of boys was ragging that poor guy who was inside the circle. I didn't even realize, but I was walking closer and closer towards them and I spoke, "Excuse me"? As I spoke, everyone looked at me. And, when they turned towards me, I got a clear look of the victim, his tears were all soaked up in his skin, his clothes were all dirty with trash. Then, I looked up...

"Yes, What do you want"?....A cold voice came and it was Sebastian.......

When I looked at him, I froze and didn't utter a single word. I was again feeling my ears getting hotter and reddish. To avoid any eye contact, I looked down. My eyes went on his left hand, he was holding a trash can.....When he noticed my sight was on his hand, he ordered the other guys to go away and threw that trash can in front of the victim, spat and walked away....I wanted to help that poor guy, but, my hands were shaking because I was just blushing so hard. So, I just ran away.....

After that day, I started looking for Sebastian almost every day at school. I would ask the popular kids about him or the peons who worked at the school........And the day came, when they also started to ignore me whenever I asked them about him.....

One day, as usual, I was looking for him as I walked into Claudia....

"Oh, hey, Mia. Long time no see,huh. How have you been"?....She asked.

"Yeah, I am good. Ummm"!.....I replied as I was looking here and there while fidgeting my fingers.....She noticed it and asked, "What happened? Are you in a hurry or maybe looking for someone"?.....even though she already knew about whom I was looking for....

"Yeah, Have you seen---ummm, Sebastian"?, I asked...

*Sigh*.."Oh Mia!! Why are you doing this to yourself? You are not the same Mia whom I knew and cared for!! You are regular at school and still, your class attendance is quite low. I have already tried to make you understand in the past but just because of your rude behavior, I stopped. But, Mia, things have gotten even worse now. Everyone is talking sh*t about you. Do you even know, the person on whom you are obsessing over also talks so much bad about you!!! And, even he himself asked you to stop, so, at least listen to him and stop doing this over and over. And one more thing, I am not trying to be any obstacle between you and him, I am just trying to be a good friend. Please, Mia, Try to understa------....... She was just talking trash. So, I just went away from there and before running from there, I told her, "You won't understand, Claudia!!!! He gives me that excitement that makes me do unusual things and even attend school regularly"!!

"But, Mia. Doesn't this excitement gets wasted everyday, as you barely attend any class"?!!, Claudia spoke....

"That's it Claudia. I've heard enough now"!!!, saying that, I left.... And, I believe that it was our last meeting....

....Claudia told me that other students talk bad about me....But, the truth is that, I just don't care about them. I only care about what Sebastian thinks, yeah he has told me to stop following him around, but, that doesn't mean he doesn't like me. It could also mean that he is just shy, right??...

That day, I went to canteen to ask him if he likes me or not, to clear things up. But, he just.........yelled at me in front of everyone but still, I didn't give up. I followed him wherever it was possible for me to follow.......

But, that was then. Now, everything has changed. I, now work at a call-center. And, every time I come home from work, he is always there. And, don't get puzzled, I am indeed talking about Sebastian.....After I come out of the bathroom, I eat my dinner with him, we spend our leisure time together, we even watch thriller movies together...... We sleep together and I love when he touches me on my cheeks with his bare hands and whenever he does, I just want it to be forever and he still gives me that excitement.......The only difference is that, his hands are now as hard as a rock and as cold as an ice. And, when I place my head on his chest, I never feel his heart beating inside his lifeless body, instead, I feel the scar that I gave him when I stabbed him...to DEATH..

But, it's his fault. I never wanted to do this to him, I----I never wanted to kill my love. I just liked him, I liked the excitement that he gave me. But, what did he do to me!! Yelled at me in front of all the students at the canteen......What was my fault-------Liking him??...... "I WAS HURT..... I WAS HURT"!!!! But, I still love him and he still is my one and only EXCITEMENT!!