Hi,my name is luna , I am a student I am 15 year world. I live in a joint family. If you see, my life is very good and with lot of happiness but only if you see with your sight. from my sight my life looks like heaven with demon and devil living in it. My father cheating on my mother with his sister in law. My mother know everything but she can't tell anyone , she thinks this all this thing happen because I was not born as a boy . My father don't harras me nor physically or mentally but my mother do not physically but mentally .I live in joint family and not good in studies my mother always compare my marks with my cousin sister. It's not like my mother haress me in a close door but she haress me openly in front of my family and as a result I talk back to her it's not like I want to talk back to her but she put me in a situation where if I don't talk back she will haress me more from the childhood I don't have any proper friends I always eat my lunch alone and my cousin sister eating with her friends giggling and laughing. Yes, I do have friends but they don't consider me as their friends . As I was not good at studying my friend throw away from their group. I felt very bad when they throw away from their group but I can't complain. When I get 14 I think now I can get some true friends but now too I get some bithchy snake I have a stage fear that's why I don't take participate in any competition . And I am 50kg and I have a big breast that's why my friends make jokes on me but I started take that joke on me with positive way.but it's still hurts inside I can't help and put my fake laughter it's not like I am attention seaker but I also want attention I don't want to beg like; somebody please help me I want everyone to join me it's I am rude or I do a wrong behaviour I try to put my behaviour with everyone one nice but it's not .My cousin and I are same age me and she also share same class. me and her share Same friends but I feel left out. my cousin don't speak properly with me at school or home . I try to speak with her normally but she never talk to me like that yeah sometime she speaks me properly (only sometime) but I don't because everyones mood can't be same all the time. But the these I fill dipressed .
But I can't help myself I am lil talkative type person if other person is not talking to me still I will try to talk to her I know I need to change my this habit but still I can't help. I can't help when they talk to me rudely but I still talk to them properly but when talk to them rudely they say they can't tolerate me .
I don't f*cking like this life if god give me one chance I want to change my this s*it*y life .
I can't do sucide because once.......My god said the person who sucide is not weak but I gave you a life with full of hope so don't end your life in Middle, complete it with sadness or happiness but complete it because if you want to complain I am here , if you are sad I am here , if you are happy I am here , I always with you in the end as a friend, family, lover Everything if you don't go till end it's not only your life but also mine, if you are crying I am too , if you happy I am too if you don't want to complete your story but complete mine because I am you and you are me , your incomplete story is also mine .....^_^
