Between Life and Death

...9 years ago…...

...It was the first time when I came to senses I felt like I was alive,My throat was sour I needed to drink water so I called out to my mother...but no one responded. I got up and searched for some water,somehow I just happened to know where it was. After drinking the water I started to get a headache...some of my previous memories returned to me -- ...

...I was playing or more like fighting with a random boy, I don't remember much about him but it seemed like I lost the fight. I was left crying but then someone reached out to me and gave me a toy to play with…after a while a bell rang and then my mother picked me up back home. ...

...This memory was seemed to be back when I was in kindergarten, I was so weak before that it was pathetic. Soon I came to realise that my previous memories didn't felt like they were mine, it was like someone else was in my place at that time.Almost as if I wasn't myself....

...Years and months gone by I transferred schools,made friends,started to live a normal life. I was from a middle class family so there was limited things that I could do. My dad was a shop keeper and mom was a house wife. She was a real control freak if things don't go her way she loses her mind. Once I was at my neighbour's and then my mom called out to me but I didn't listen, so she walked up to me and dragged me away. Then at home she picked me up in air and tossed me on the ground…the last thing I remember, I was in great pain I broke a leg and hit the back of my head and passed out....

...From that day everything changed....

...Mom and dad fought everyday,debts that we could not repay,my marks started to get worse and worse, I avoided going out of my house, after all of this I was too afraid to look my mom in the eyes. The only thing I was great at, was lying. I lied to my family,friends every single day. The guilt was killing me but I had no choice. And all of this was just the beginning. My friends were the only one that I was happy with. Slowly we all had to separate one by one for various reasons. I barely smiled anymore after that. I never had a love life and I was desparate for one that maybe it will make me happy again. The one time I almost did have one I screwed up....

...--Present--...

...The final boards are coming closer but I have completely lost my interest in studying anymore. I am certain that I am going to fail so I may as well embrace it. But I am too afraid that everyone will be disappointed in me, my mom and dad raised me all of this time to just to see me fail? I couldn't bear this feeling anymore. So I talked to them, they said that they didn't care how but they wanted me pass. I lost it. I have been enduring this feeling,this pain. ...

..."I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!", I said to myself....

...I searched for ways to kill myself, I wanted to escape, I am ready to do anything to just leave it all behind....

...And then one day the opportunity arrived. We will be going on a school trip near the mountains so we decided to do a little climbing. There is a cliff almost straight as a wall. I am scared of heights but I have to do it. When everybody were busy with their work… without a second thought…I did it. I jumped off the cliff, I heard light screaming coming from behind but it's too late…I closed my eyes and it was all over…...

......Suddenly I opened my eyes it was pure darkness,everywhere... I thought I was finally in after life, but then I found a flashlight thingy droped at my feet. I turned it on and flash it forward and saw that there is a sign, it is written in a different language that I have never seen before but I am somehow able to read it....

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...And It said,"LIMBO"....

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