Introduction - His Point Of View

It was an unexpected time and date when I first met you. I admit that I notice you and started to be interested in you not because I saw something in you but I saw someone is with you.

It's her, my ex-bestfriend and my first love. I am happy to see her in the same university and at the same time sad because she still ignores me. Maybe she still hates me and blames me for what happened in the past but what can i do if I can't control my feelings towards her anymore and become greedy to wish for the both of us to become more than just a friend.

Everytime I saw you with her. I can't help thinking the old days when I am still her only bestfriend and not you. I keep on comparing the things you do with her with the things we have done together. I am jealous whenever you are with her, I know it is wrong to be jealous with her present bestfriend but I can't help it because I was once her only bestfriend who is at her side during better or worse. And I can't help comparing myself to you because I hate you. I once want you to disappear in her life, for her to return to me and we can do the things we had done together in the past.

As the time goes by, I didn't noticed that by comparing and comparing myself to you and keep on observing you I have known a lot of things about you and I started not to hate you.

One day, I saw you together with her and a man who is I think your classmate. Many things have been running in my mind. Who is that man and why is he always sitting beside her? And the next day, I heard a shocking news that he is her boyfriend. Am I late?

I am questioning myself. Why didn't I notice? How did it happened? And then realization hits me how can I know if I am busy observing you and getting to know you more instead of observing her and knowing her more.

Since that day I started digging information about her and his boyfriend. I never stop until I find informations about her boyfriend.

Then suddenly you become part of the student council. I am distracted at your presence because I don't know if anytime she will visit you at the office.

From the day you started as part of the student council I keep on observing you if you know me because I am hoping that maybe she tells you stories about me. But to my disappointment I can see that you really dont know me.

Because of jealousy I had done an unforgivable sin to you without you knowing it and when the day you will know the things I had done you will hate me for the rest of your life.

As you enter my world, I get to know you more and more. You are a happy go lucky person and you also make the people around you happy. So when I saw you cry for the first time I felt a pain in my heart that keeps me sleepless for how many nights.

And finally that day came when I found out the truth behind your cries and that made me regret all the things I have done to you for the rest of my life.

And this question is what I keep asking within myself since that day: Will I continue my long journey towards her?

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