I don't want to be

Spoorthi's P.O.V

Beautician finished my make-up...

My eyes were puffy...

I saw myself in the mirror. It was pink gown and my hairs in bun hairstyle, Light make-up in my face.

Beautician Team complimented me that I look beautiful. They told me that the team have done light make-up as Mr instructed.

I was looking myself, feeling sad in the mirror.

Professionals left, leaving me alone.

I stood up, ran to open the door, looking around no one was there and I started to run.

It was difficult to run in that dress. Still I was able to manage somehow and run away.

There was no one to stop or catch me, Empty mansion. I was running, I don't know where!?

I came out of the mansion

There was dark night, Only I can see is dark. I am scared it was very dark. I just wanted to run away I murmur to myself "I will not go again, I don't need this, It's against my heart..."

As it was a deep forest, I ran as far as away from mansion. No one was there, don't know where I came...

I was looking around for something. I felt like someone is there behind me. I am scared to look who was it. Suddenly I can feel someone's breath near my neck. Someone grab my arm pulls my back to his chest, Smelling my hairs. A male voice came "Where are you running?"

I was silent, He kissed my collar neck, he pulled more closer. Now I am hell scared. I pushed him hardly and started to run. He shouted at me "come back, its dangerous" I didn't stop, he chased me. I slipped and hit  my fore head with the rock. I back out...

I can hear a sound. I opened my eyes rolled another side of the bed.

"Ohhh shit I forgot" I searched my phone, saw the time. It was 06: 49 A.M. It had two missed call and three messages. "Holy crap", Two missed from my sis, Divya. I love to call her diya. I was above to call her then saw three messages one from diya, I opened it "Good morning. did u wake up baby?! Don't call... Text here" Then I replied "I am getting ready"... Another two messages was from Prashanth he is my another friend, I love to call him Shanth...

If I love some person I ll call them with new unique name and I should only call them by that name...

I saw his two messages one was "same here" and another one was "So u were not happy meeting me is it"...

Yesterday evening I had a friends hangout with my diya and shanth but shanth brought his friend Bhaskar along with him. It was a huge shock for me. In this three years only shanth was talking about him but never brought him along. Bhaskar was little handsome. We all met in my favourite cafe karma kaapi. I am a coffee lover. Shanth introduce bhaskar to both of us. We sat in four chair table. One of the person came to take the order, He was new I guess I never saw him before. Person placed the menu on the table. He offered me the another menu. Now I came to know he was new bcz the whole menu is registered in my mind. I ll come here at least once in two weeks whenever I am hurt or sad. I feel relax and I have my fav place to sit and watch the side road...

I I told the person "I don't want it" and placed the order one red velvet latte and karma masala fries. Everyone was looking at me as if I own this place. After long looking at the menu and discussing they placed the order. Bhaskar took Escopino, Shanth order cold coffee with Nacho and diya ordered masala tea. We enjoyed a lot, Teasing each other bcz all are committed/engaged except me. Yes, I am single. We were done and I made an excuse that I had a call and paid the bill. After that I came and sat normally as nothing has happened. When shanth came to know that I have paid the bill he gazed at me. I smiled and we left the cafe. Shanth have a car so he first drop my sis. After dropping her, me and bhaskar began to tease shanth says his crush name Anu... As "Pranu"

I was teasing him before. I recalled everything, time has changed, now everything is changed... Now bhaskar came to know how close we were. I can say by his look. He also starting thinking that me and shanth love each other. They drop to near my home. I waved my hand to say bye and said thanks for joyful evening. Shanth told me to drop a text after reaching home. He is always like this Caring towards only girls. Hahahaha just kidding. He is kind, He is simply...

I reached gate. It's just one minute walk but still he needs text. I drop text to shanth that I reached home.

I Opened the door...

TV was on... Some serial was going on... I don't watch TV. I didn't find my mom. I get angry when ever I am home if I don't see my mom. I guess it's happens to everybody. I dump my bag in my room and straight went to kitchen to see my mom. she was washing vessels. I love to give her a back hug. I hugged her for few seconds everytime it ll scare her and she scolds me for doing it. I love that feeling, I love my mom more these days.

Thanks to diya. On feb 5 2020 morning around 4 a.m I got a call that diya's mom has expired. I saw diya suffering from that incident. I just get scare and heart beat rises imaging without my mom. My mom told me to change the dress and have dinner. I finished dinner sitting in front of the TV, One hand holding phone and another hand with the plate. I don't give attention to TV. It's for my mom to accompany her, asking in-between updates that's it. She feels happy...

Then I texted shanth to share pics...

I love to read romance novel more like obsessed, possessive, Bossy novels. I was reading that and slept off may be that is the reason I had that nightmare. It's okay I love possessive, Bossy and obsessed love...

My mom opened the door ask me what to make for the breakfast. Suddenly I came to Earth from the my thoughts world. I put my phone on the table came out of the bed and replied to my mom that I am going for herbalife club with diya to reduce my weight. My mom was shock after hearing it. Then I told not for me only to accompany diya. Saying that I went to shower. Thanks for my lovely daddy he knows me very well he on the tap hot water in the bath tub while me and mom having conversation. I was ready and left home. I reached there. We went inside and get registered, it was our first day there. We introduced ourselves. It was fine session. We finished our session and came outside. Diya left for office and I am for college then I took phone out of the bag and replied to Shanth for this last message. I was not in the mood to go to college. Google for near library and went. Sat there for one hour and studied my company law subject. I am doing my law course and company secretary course both. I wasn't knowing that library will be closed by 11:30 a.m then reopen at 4:00 p.m. They told me the timings. I came out then I called diya. She was in her office, I told her I wasn't in the mood to go to college and library has been closed. She told me to come to her office and study. I was happy. She knows me very well. I took a cap and went there. We had a chat and I teased asking her about her would be hubby. She was engaged. They both are made for each other. He was more handsome so, I named him handsome bhava {bhava meaning brother-in-law}... I know all her colleagues and her boss too...

I know her very well. We are soul sisters ❤️ Around 2:30 p.m. we gone to her home for lunch her office was near to her home.

Her father was waiting for us to have lunch together. We had lunch. I miss Aunty {diya mother} it was around 3:00 p.m for my part-time job. I do work as a sales executive in paper manufacturing factory near diya office.

I reached office and sat in my sit turned on the computer. I greeted my colleagues. My close colleague Padma mam, She is the head. Padma asked me worried "Did sir called you or text you today?" I replied "No... What happen?!" Mam told me that he is the not responding to text or calls and he is not in the factory. I told her that he might be busy in the meetings and not to worry. she got worried and told me there is lot to of quotation to send and so much work to be done. I told her not to worry we will handle everything and continue to work. I was busy and it was time to sign off...

One message pop in my phone. I saw the text its from diya "call me when u r signing off. Ur uncle has some business out. We can go for evening walk" I replied with a yes. I drop a text in what's app to sir that I am signing off. Strange No reply, Usually sir would reply. I felt something fishy...

I came out of the office saying bye to my colleagues. It was 06:40 p.m. I called diya for evening walk but her number was not reachable. my office was only few mins away from her home so I decided to go to her home...

Saw diya's what's app status. I felt sad she was missing her mom very badly. I thought to distract her and called her again. She picked up I told her that I am feeling like drinking coffee so we will go for kaapi kendra. It was more our gang hanging spot. She told it ll b late.. I argued at last I won. As I was near her home I hanged up her call and call to Shanth to ask meet up to regular spot. He agreed to hangout as for he was near by spot. He asked "Divya is also coming!?" I replied yes..

Then I hang up. I reached her home. I was literally hungry. I am foodie.

I dump my bag. I start to shout that I am hungry. Diya laugh and gave me dates to have. I love that smile on her face but I gave her a deadly look. She told me that we started taking that nutrition shake so we are on diet. I told "How am I gonna survive without junk foods!? You know akka {akka means sister} for me diet means DID I EAT THAT!?" she told "plz baby for me." I agreed and ate that one cup of dates now my angry hungry stomach little clam down. We lock the door and book auto. On the way I was teasing my sis. We reached there and called shanth. He also reached with bhaskar. After seeing bhaskar I realised that shanth wants bhaskar to add in the group. Its okay for me. We said hello to each other. I told shanth that I am hungry and told I want to eat chat. Diya was looking at me. I ignored her. We went chat shop. Diya is in diet so she ordered corn. I and bhaskar ordered bhelpuri as for shanth he shared our bhelpuri. Teasing and chatting was done. We went to kaapi kendra. Diya and shanth ordered masala tea, Bhaskar ordered tea and me badam shake. Everyone was looking at me in shock as ordered badam shake instead of coffee. Well I was not in the mood. We enjoyed. We reached parking lot. Bhaskar and Shanth murmured something. We didn't get it. After that we sat in the car. Shanth was driving. Bhaskar sat in passenger seat, me and diya at back seat. Shanth adjusted his mirror towards me I knew it he wants to see me but I convinced my heart saying that he adjusted to see road. In mid-way bhaskar told to drop as he was something up to business. Diya played Shanth favourite songs and asked me did I remembered those songs. I replied "I remember none..."

In my deep heart knows that remember haha I didn't forget anything. Shanth told "I wish I would have forget as u" I know what he is trying to say but now I don't want to go back to the past {There is past of shanth and spoorthi's will come to know in next few updates} we drop diya near her home. I came forward to the passenger seat. Shanth began to drive. He played his playlist fill with sad songs and he started to question me why I left him...?! Avoiding him for months. I kept silent but my heart wanted to scream truth on his face. By then he got that I don't wanna answer it. I changed the topic to normal talks, asking about his family and profession. He is an entrepreneur, He owns two companies one is BPO and construction. It is all fine he replied with a sad smile. I don't know after that all of a sudden environment became silent. I was listening to song. Then suddenly he sang a lyrics along with the song {you left those places, we spent the memories, I remember everything and I miss u} and told me "this is for you..." Again I had no words. I don't know. Then I asked about anu {his crush what I was thinking}... "How is she?!" He replied "Good"... I think the reason behind why bhaskar left so that we can have our time but it was useless. he didn't get the answer. As we reached near my home. I  waved a bye and I left. I reached home and drop a text to him. He replied okay. I reached home. had dinner and slept...

Author Note

Hi.. Hello... NAMASTE... this is my first time writing. Plz do make correct the grammar if I am wrong. Plz do comment what u felt after reading this chapter. I Know I haven't explained about nature of the leads and hope in this chapter little now you know how is Spoorthi's life and her current situation. There is lot more about her. you will get to know in further chapters.

In next chapter I will narrate you about Kavin who loves simple.

Stay in tune...👻

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