Chapter 1

Why must the world perceive beauty in such an unfair manner. Why must I be skinny with fair skin, beautiful eyes, long hair, pink luscious lips. Can I not be beautiful if I do not meet your standards. I was constantly criticized for my weight, my dark skin, my freckled face, my short hair... I thought the beauty you have in the inside out shines the beauty on the outside, but I was quickly proved wrong.

Some people are forced to learn that the world is a cruel place at such a young age... I had to learn at such a young age. My parents were ashamed of me resulting in them forcing harsh diets on me until I lost 10 pounds a month. A mere child barely old enough to ride a roller coaster was forced to starve to maintain the "perfect body". Even in such conditions I was required to smile and show no other emotion but happiness. Anything but that resulted in a beating, if I was lucky I could get out of it with no broken arms or legs.

My heavy diets put me in tremendous pain but momma said that pain is beauty, something that woman such as ourselves must bare. What mamma says goes.

"Momma can I go outside and play?"

She takes in a big sniff of the cigarette she was smoking and let's it out in my face. I begin to cough aggressively trying to breath in fresh air. She watches as I struggle and smiles. She puts the cigarette out and looks at me once more.

"Don't you wanna hang out with momma? You're making me so sad, do you want me to be alone?"

I shake my head, "no momma ill stay with you"

"That's my girl, now go get me a beer out the fridge."

I run towards the fridge and open it. Only one beer left. I grab the beer and run it back to momma. As I'm running back I trip over something. I look over to see what I tripped over. My big brother, he was smiling over me.

" Momma!" He yells

"She wasted your last beer!" He sneers as he looks at me.

"WHAT!? MY LAST ONE!"

She gets up and runs towards me. She grabs a picture from the coffee table and throws it right at me. I couldn't dodge. Blood trickles down my head and into my left eye. Without a warning she lunges towards me hitting me nonstop. I can see my big brother Sunny watching from behind her, smiling deviantly.

Five minutes goes by, she's finally calmed down. With not much energy left I try calling for momma.

"Momma? Momma? I didn't waste it, I saved it when I fell." I take the beer from under neath the pillow next to me. I hide it after I fell so that it wouldn't break.

She looks at the beer bottle almost ecstatic."Oh my dear child."

She walks towards me and kisses my bloody swollen face. She drops my head and grabs the beer bottle. I can see her covered in my blood, I couldn't see my brother. In fact I could now barely see my mother. I start to lose consciousness.

The room starts to get dark. I can't even hear momma anymore. "Momma, are you happy now. I saved your beer, does this mean you'll play with me? A tear trickles down my face.

"Momma looks happy now, I'm glad I could make her smile"

To be continued...

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