Parineeti

"meeting with Pradyuman I guess it was my faith . I thought I would find a new way to live my life but as usual too optimistic me lead it to destructive phase of my life.

sometime I feel why am i being like this ?! craves for love when it finally comes to me cant even handle it properly, switching on my dominant mode to show em how cruel I am !!? is it cool to be cruel ?! is it cool to be savage !? is it cool to be ruthless ?! I guess I need to change myself or I will lose him too" - every day before going out of bed I tell myself , I have to be kind for Pradyuman but guess what? myself never listen to me , never listen to anyone ! i wake up , have showered , put headphones on ready to leave the world where I dont

even fit .

Songs are something , you know an invisible person with so many personalities who can makes you cry , or makes you realise you're in love or makes you feel wet underneath your underwears without touching yourself . if song is a person then it would definitely make best boyfriend or girlfriend .

currently I am obsessed with ELLEY DUHÈ , her voice never dissatisfied me

my music taste changes according to the season of my mood it's not easy for a song to be my sweetheart , to be my all time favourite ! but there is one song that always makes me too much optimistic it's the old bolly hit song of 1959 yes The raj Kapoor era ! for me that era was the bestest one , the b&W era , The era of mukesh, manna Dey , Rafi sahab, Kishore da more more the time when a merely humen being transforming themselves into gods , into memoirs that would help people to remember them even they they wont exist .

Wine tastes good when it ages so do the movies of old times . The concept is clear yet cringe .

who am I ?

> You're Parineeti

what was my past ?

> normal as usual

why am I being like this ?

> you're being too toxic

Toxic people attach themselves like cinder blocks tied to your ankles, and then invite you for a swim in their poisoned waters but people are not toxic from birth , situation , people make them like this .

there is a serpent among us , unable to point out the real one but when it surely increases its number

but but hatred, love, affection, trust , sorrow , fear , happiness etc are the parts of the life.

these are my philosophies when I am in my own world but when my world meets with the real world it shatters into pieces.

still one song makes me smile my all time favourite......

Kisi ki muskurahaton pe ho nisaar

(Offer yourself to bring a smile to someone)

Kisi ka dard mil sake toh le udhaar

(Share a shoulder to bear someone's pain)

Kisi ke vaaste ho tere dil mein pyar

(Have love for someone in your heart)

Jeena isi ka naam hai (This is the name of life)

thank you mukesh ji

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