Epilogue

I'm numb. Feelings are not with me anymore

One can say it's cold but I can't feel the coldness.

One can burn in fire but I don't cause I can't even feel it.

One can feel pain and my body yearns for it, but the feeling of pain is not there. Pain is my drug. It is keeping me alive.

I want to stab myself but I can't cause mom made me promised to stop stabbing myself. And I did... for her. So running nonstop is my only option, running is vigorous to achieve the pain my body needed.

Feelings. A word that I don't have. A word I yearned to become a real human. The reason I enter this Martinez Grey Academy. This monster wanted to earn... is feelings. I know the meaning of friendship but I don't feel it, I just stick to its idea.

The only thing I know that functions properly is my mind, it controls my body. Emotions don't control it anymore and... pain charges my body to maintain my mind in proper function.

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"*Why didn't you tell me*?" I was out of dazed when Cassy asked me. We are in the restaurant of the school eating our lunch.

"*You wouldn't like it*." I stated blankly. I didn't told her about my battle with Daniela last week.

"*Of course I wouldn't like it*!" She yelled which caused some students to look at us.

"*Please, lower your voice Cassy*." Drena calmed her.1 Cassy and Drena are my boardmates, well they considered themselves as my friends. But, I don't know what really friendship feels like, I just go with the flow.

"*See? That's why I didn't told you*." I said blankly. "*But s*-" She was cut off.

"*Well, well, well. Look who's here*." I already sensed her coming when the students became silent a little earlier. Daniela.

She is known as the strongest girl fighter here in the Academy. I smirked, ”*strongest*" huh.

"*Just go Dane*. *We're not here for a fight*." Drena's voice was hard, resisting the urge to fight her.

"*Oh really? I'm not here to fight either, I just want to send my regards to your friend here*." She said faking a sweet voice pointing at me from behind.

Drena and Cassy formed their hands in a fist. "*How are you Claire? I'm surprised you're still alive. Good then, because I'm not yet satisfied with what I've done to you*..."

She leaned closer to my ear "*I want more*." She whispered but clear for the two to hear. I smirked more to myself. Me too, I want more... pain.

Drena slapped her hands on the table and Cassy directly stand up, I held Cassy's hand and shook my head. She's really hardheaded as she tried pulling her hand off of me to face Daniela, but it didn't budge.

I did not hold it tight or I might break her hand.1 "*No, don't stop me Claire! She's out of boundary*!" Her voice was venomous trying to pull her hands off of me, I pulled her back to her chair, just enough force to make her sit back.

Drena on the other hand is sitting with her head lowered down but anger is seen in her features. Daniela laughed "*Control your girls or else you will see them in the hospital*." She said in between her laughter while walking towards a table with two girls following behind.

They took the table from the students near us and sit there instead. We ate in silence once again while the three girls near our table started talking. "Hey! Have you heard that Carlo came yesterday in the Underground Arena?" #1 of Daniela's friend said.

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