Love

"Of course he doesn't love me, what am I doing? I can't keep fooling myself..."

Taehyung has been crying non-stop for the past hour, his eyes were puffy and red, his long sleeves wet with tears since he used up all his tissues half hour ago. The only thing lighting his dark room was his laptop where he had a news website opened that read 'BTS Jungkook dating scandal' following by two pictures of a security camera, Jungkook was hugging a blonde girl with a white t-shirt and black pants, both smiling and having a good time in a restaurant.

Taehyung swallowed saliva, took a deep breath in and exhaled, trying to sound as calmed as he could "I'm not hungry, hyung, thank you"

Jin kept silence for a bit "Are you okay? You don't sound like yourself" The knob of his door wobbled "Why is the door locked?"

"It's nothing, hyung, I just wanna be alone, I'm okay"

"Okay... I'll save you some food for later"

As Jin's footsteps vanished, Taehyung's sobbing started again.

His laptop turned off due to low battery "Thank you" Taehyung said to the electronic device, that was actually the only way that he could stop re-reading the story over and over again, looking at the pictures minutely, zooming in Jungkook's face and then girl's face and back again to Jungkook.

His heart ached so bad when he first heard about this, he thought he was having a heart attack, they were at dance practice and he tried to hid it but he nearly ended up calling his manager so he could take him to the hospital. He was so glad now that he didn't because if that happened everyone would have known about him being heartbroken over his dongsaeng, Jeon Jungkook.

Since they started living together, Taehyung always thought there was something between them, they constantly flirted on and especially off camera, they normally did it with other members too but it was very different with him, it didn't feel 'brotherly'. Years had passed and this dynamic never changed, in his mind anytime now one of them was going to confess his love to the other, he assumed this hadn't happened yet because of the country's prejudice against same sex relationships, at least that was one of the things stopping him from confessing, being rejected not only him but causing Jungkook to be rejected by society, he could've never done that to him.

Taehyung rubbed his face and got up from his bed with a jump, he decided he needed fresh air immediately. He put on an oversized jacket covering his pajamas and a mask with a hat that luckily covered his swollen eyes, he took a moment to be ready to pass through his hyungs "Calm down, Taehyung, calm down"

He quickly left the room and kept his pace to the front door. He was almost there when he heard Jungkook's and Jimin's laughs very close.

"Hyung, where are you going at this hour of the night?" His heart clenched at the sound of the maknae's voice, he decided to ignore him but Jimin, his best friend, was curious as well.

"Tae what's wrong?"

Taehyung cursed at himself mentally, he was like an open book for Jimin, he could never fool him. Either way he needed to get out and was not in the mood to explain yet, not even to his best friend "I- Nothing, I'll be right back" he couldn't think of anything convincing to say so he just left, without looking back.

He ran a few blocks away from the house and stopped next to a little empty park, catching his breath, leaning himself with his hands on his knees. He stood straight and sighed, walking to a green bench.

"HYUNG!" Someone yelled from behind.

'Oh no, no, no, please no' he didn't dare to turn around, why from all people "Hyung, why were you running?" Jungkook chuckled stabilizing his breathing. Taehyung didn't say anything, he was afraid that he would start sobbing again, mainly because Jungkook was there.

Jungkook tilted his head confused when he didn't get an answer and Taehyung was still facing the other way "Jin hyung told me to come for you, he was worried"

"Of course he did" Taehyung's shoulders fell with disappointment 'He didn't came for me, he came because he was told to, get out of your imagination, Taehyung'

Jungkook frowned and walked around Tae to see his face "Hyung, what's wrong?" he asked holding his shoulders "You're acting so weird today, please tell me"

"Nothing's wrong" he mumbled looking at his shoes.

"Come on!" Jungkook scratched his chin to make him look up, pulling his mask down. His eyes widen at the sight, tears falling steady down Tae's reddish cheeks.

He couldn't hold it any longer and soon Tae was sobbing again, shivering violently, his hat falling to the ground once he buried his face in his palms.

"Tae?" Jungkook whispered and hugged him tightly. Taehyung cried on his shoulder for a few seconds and then pushed him away.

"Please leave me alone, I need to be alone" he said covering his eyes, embarrassed.

Jungkook roughly hugged Tae again even closer, with so much strength it was impossible for Taehyung to get out "No! I will never leave you like this, your pain is my pain too, hyung, I would do anything to make you happy and never ever see you like this ever again"

"Stop saying that kind of things, please" Tae sobbed, trying to recover his composure.

"Why?" This time the maknae sounded hurt.

"Because that's not the kind of things you say to a brother"

"I-" Jungkook broke the embrace and stared at his hyung.

"Don't you have a girlfriend now?" Taehyung knew he had to shut up but now he couldn't stop himself "Save those words for her" his voice deeper than usual.

Jungkook blushed "Taehyung... I- S-she's not my girlfriend, she's j-just a friend" he stuttered.

Taehyung took a few steps away from his dongsaeng "Yeah, right..." he said turning his back to Jungkook but he grabbed his arm and stopped him from walking away.

"No, you have to believe me, please Tae" he lowered his head "Please believe me" he whispered weakly.

"No, I don't have to, it's none of my business"

"But it is!" Jungkook shouted and covered his mouth partially "It is very much your business, hyung" he said losing his grip on Tae's arm sliding his hand grazing the other's hand.

Taehyung gasped when the maknae grasped his hand, interwinding his fingers "What-You-" he couldn't elaborate a proper sentence, he was in shock.

"I love you, hyung" he looked at their hands, too ashamed to look at Tae's face "I always have" he instantly looked up when he heard Tae's loud sobs again.

Taehyung cried his heart out "I love you too, Jungkookie" he whined.

Jungkook came closer and put their foreheads together, at this time they were both crying but grinning at each other, these tears weren't of sadness, these were happy tears, which Taehyung never thought he would be shedding today.

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Bye!!!!!!

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