part 1

I am not sure what to call it, that is happening between us.

I am not sure how to react to it.

I am not sure, to call it an attraction or more.

I am not sure whether to say it or not.

But I am sure, what I feel for you, can’t be expressed in words.

When we look at each other, there is always the spark.

When we talk to each other, the words go crazy.

When we don't talk to each other, but just sit together. It feels companionable.

When we text each other, it's not many words but says a lot.

When we frustrate each other by not saying anything but waiting for others to say something.

When we are miles apart, but still keep tabs on each other.

When we couldn't touch each other. Because we don't trust what's this is.

We both know, we want each other. But we can’t have each other.

It’s almost formidable. 

Not sure how to tackle this, whether to kill this or live this.

You tell me. Because I am not sure with my heart or brain. 

I just keep a distance from you, but still, it always pulls me towards you.

Vedika wrote this while sitting at the coffee table. She was waiting for Rishi. He was on his way. She wasn't sure whether she should meet him or not. Last night, they finally decided to give in, what they are feeling for each other.

3 years before 

She was an ambitious career woman. She was both a kick-*** professional and a charismatic leader. She was beautiful, fun, honest and all things Rishi wanted... When they first met, he didn't realize it though. She was a regular techie for him. But gradually as he got to know her, she was all he could see. He himself was, by the way, was a social figure, a management consultant and Management GURU as they call it. He was handsome and fun. They both become very tight friends. They shared a good chemistry. They both were married, settled. They used to share many things starting from love lives, their ambitions, their fears and a lot... It was going well. Having a friend like that was a blessing, in dry corporate life!

But soon everything changed. Their daily rants about their lives, their nonsense banter, lame jokes became something. Something which made their hearts beat faster... Something which was a lot more than their friendship…Something which they both realized, but nobody spoke… Nobody dared… They knew they were totally invested in that something…

That’s why they took steps back. The two started keeping a distance from each other. Their daily tea treats reduced to weekly to monthly. They couldn't see each other eye to eye. The words disappeared from their talks, a breathing silence took over instead. Their encounters became awkward. It was too much to take in. They both started bailing on each other.

And one fine day, Rishi declared that he was moving to another city. Was it a drastic measure or a mistake? Nobody knew, but it seemed logical at that time. That something had clouded the air between them, but their friendship was still intact. Vedika wasn’t happy about Rishi’s departure, but she didn’t stop him. She knew it was ought to happen. They bid a teary farewell to each other as friends do. They separated.

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