Chapter 2

Author's POV

It was Kylie's first day of 9th grade. It has been 3 years since her parents got divorced. Her life was a living hell, she didn't understand why life was this cruel with her.

Kylie's POV

*RINGGGGGGG* The ringing sound of my alarm woke me up from my dreams to the hellish reality. I layed in my bed not having the energy to move as my whole body was sore from last night's 5 hours workout. I also hadn't eaten enough since 3 days. Why you ask? It's because it is my first day for 9th class, and I wanted to look like a normal person. Over the time, I used my food as my coping mechanism which led me to gain a lot of weight. I was fat. Hell even a elephant would weight lesser than me. I wanted to be how I was 3 years ago. I used to be really skinny, but because of "that" incident, everything in my life was ruined. My mom and dad told me they would not let it affect me, So why the **** did it hurt so much? How did a go from a happy, energetic, playfull child to this? That's when my mom called me, "Kylie, come downstairs and have your breakfast!", she said. I got down from my bed went to the bathroom and did my stuff, wore my new uniform, got ready and got downstairs.

I was really very nervous. For 3 years I have been homeschooled, and after a really long time I'm going back to a public school. I'm not the extroverted girl anymore, I don't have the confidence used to have before. I had become really self conscious over the past 3 years. I've been really disappointed in myself. I used to be skinny, pretty, good in sports, studies and had a huge group of friends, heck you can even say that I was friends with the whole school. But now.......I'm a nobody....

"Honey, what are you thinking about? Have your breakfast! I'll be back in a minute.", she said. "Yeah mom", I replied. When she left I quickly threw more than half of my food in the dustbin and sat back. I left a few pieces in the plate so that I could show her that I ate. I've been doing this for a few days and I lost 10 pounds in less than 2 weeks, but it was not enough, I was still fat and I'll keep doing this until I'm at a "normal" weight.

My mom came back after some time and asked me, "Honey, how did you finish all this breakfast so quickly?" "I was just really hungry today, nothing much", I said. She looked at me suspiciously but let it slide. I sighed in relief. Thank God she didn't force me to finish it up. Or else I would've gained even more weight.

"Honey were going to be late! Come here fast!", she said. "Coming", I said. I got in the car and my mom started driving. Each second started to make me more and more nervous. I felt butterflies in my stomach, I felt dizzy and nauseous. I didn't want to go, But I had to, it's for my own good. After a couple of minutes my school arrived. It was a huge school, with many students rushing here and there. Seeing this made me even more self conscious. "Holy Shit What if I get a panic attack in front of the whole school?!" "What if I get bullied?" "What if people thought I was a weirdo?" "What if people found out about my depression and self harm?" "Will I have any friends?" "Are the teachers good or bad?" Several questions ran through my mind.

I released the breath I never knew I was holding. "Jesus, please protect me!"

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