IN MY MIND

I will accept my life as it is from now on because there is nothing good at imagining what my life would be like. It just gives us false hope of how my life would have been in "good" scenarios, but there is nothing good about my life.

 I should have died yesterday or the day before.

I am tired of this. I wish I could be a rock somewhere under the sea. Why am I even imagining things? Sorry, I just got carried away.

 (Sighs) I was not going to think about this stuff, but... darn it!

 People tell children that every story has a happy ending, but there is no happy ending to my story. They say hope always appears after darkness, as the bright sun appears after a dark night,

but in my case, the darkness seems endless.

 There is always a plan after success, but we don't have a plan after failure because we never think about failing. All the things we think are about what we will do after we get success, but how to deal with failure? We didn't think about that situation, did we? (laughs)

It's funny how people think the best things will happen to them. Believing that it would never cross their path. It's pitiful to look at them, but I am the same and I know that very well.

I just want some hope for the last time.

I haven't seen it till now but someday maybe I will be able to see that shining ray of hope, that people tell in stories and other stuff.

...2-SOMETHING ABOUT ME...

People say there are seven kingdoms in this era. I don't know how many there were before that, maybe 9 or 10...

Well, like I care about that. The thing that comes after that is what I am after. They say the person who conquers all those kingdoms gets to sit on a throne called "THRONE OF THE TEMPEST."

(laughs) It sounds like a little kid's dream. But it said that there was only one person who once sat on that throne, and that was like a century ago. Would you believe that? (laughs) You won't believe it, but I do, for some stupid reason.

(Current situation)

Right now I am drowning in a river; the river current is carrying my half-dead body. My right leg and arm are broken, and my left shoulder is dislocated. I have saved myself from a few huge rocks in the river, but I don't know how much more my body can take.

I may pass out any minute now.

It was my fault that all this happened, so I deserved this. I am not particularly sad about it, but dying due to drowning in a river sounds really pathetic right now, and for a stupid reason.

Oh, I can see something there; it's people laughing, and for some reason I am laughing too. I can see some familiar faces; it is just too good to be true. It is so similar to what I used to imagine. I don't know why it's all turning red.

Oh, I get it now that the sun is near the horizon. I should go now, right, it would get dark soon.

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