...I can't find myself...
...I get lost inside my brain...
...I think I might need help, mm...
...But I pushed all of 'em away...
...I took the cards they dealt...
...And there's nothin' I can change...
...So, when I'm by myself...
...I just pray for brighter days...
...Sometimes I sit, and I reminisce 'bout the good times...
...Wish I could get those back...
...I keep on runnin' these races that go in my mind...
...And they go on these tracks...
...I'm not ready to erase all my memories...
...Hmm, I fight depression and I let it get the best of me...
...Now there's nowhere to run, nowhere to go...
...Look around, there's liquor bottles all on the floor...
...Fillin' up the space inside my heart and my home...
...Drownin' out these thoughts until they leave me alone...
...I can't find myself...
...I get lost inside my brain...
...Think I might need help...
...But I pushed all of 'em away...
...I took the cards they dealt...
...And there's nothin' I can change...
...So, when I'm by myself...
...I just pray for brighter days...
...These thoughts are drainin' all my energy...
...I try to tell 'em to God, they said, "I'm goin' insane"...
...And then they recommended therapy...
...And I go and talk to a man who's gettin' paid to explain...
...He started sayin' that the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain...
...Ain't connectin' to accomplishments associated with movin' on...
...All in life and passive things in life, my heart cannot contain...
...So that happiness won't sustain...
...And he read me my options...
...He said, "Here goes a pill, only take two, eat a meal"...
...And they don't know how I feel...
...I can't find myself (I can't find myself)...
...I get lost inside my brain...
...Think I might need help (think I might need help)...
...But I pushed all of 'em away...
...I took the cards they dealt (took the cards they dealt)...
...And there's nothin' I can change...
...So, when I'm by myself (when I'm by myself)...
...I just pray for brighter days...
...Should I drown all these thoughts, or should I leave 'em to float?...
...I've got all of my flaws livin' inside of this boat...
...I've been anchored in pain, the weight is makin' me choke...
...It's gettin' harder to breathe, it's pullin' right at my throat...
...I've been hopin' for change, but don't know how to restart...
...They say you ain't a man when you're exposin' your heart...
...Then they say you insane until it tears you apart...
...And then it cuts you so deep, and they can tell by the scars...
...We can only see change when we accept who we are...
...Try to run from the shame, and you will never get far...
...Don't you bottle the pain and live your life in the dark...
...You're meant to break from those chains and shine as bright as a star...
...Don't you ever tell yourself that your depression...
...Is the reason you won't make it or that happiness is not in your cards...
...With our God, you can beat all the odds...
...Keep your faith, and you'll never be lost and say...
...I can't find myself...
...I get lost inside my brain...
...Think I might need help (I think I might need help)...
...But I pushed all of 'em away (I pushed all of them away)...
...I took the cards they dealt...
...And there's nothin' I can change...
...So, when I'm by myself...
...I just pray for brighter days...
...
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...Source: Musixmatch...
...Songwriters: Daniel Nwosu...
...credit to the owner:-)...
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