dramas that happened to my life

Hi my name is Nestrik and I'm from Philippines, this story is a story of mine and it's base on a real story, when I was a kid I didn't experience a love from a dad and for me his dead I have 3 siblings my step sister lives with her dad and me and my real sister live in our grandma's house and my step sister lives with my mom and her dad, see how lucky they are they experience a love from their parents while I struggle with mental illness, sometimes i think of attempting suicide but someone said no and that person is my girlfriend I met my girlfriend in the journalism contest where I joined in and won 2nd place, my life was tough but at least I have her we see each other at school and she always give me hugss, I know what your thinking that I don't care about my grades but I really do I'm with honor and I'm great at writting. I have a lot friends from school and from church and they are the best. Sometimes I want people to understand that being depressed is not aesthetic or an attention seeker I was 9 when I started struggling from mental illness all I can think about is dying but nope I'm here still alive because I want to become a lawyer someday everyone thought my life is perfect but no I have a lot of family problems thinking about what happened last year and last last year made me tear up well what happened last year is my aunt have a problem on me she slapped me and said bad words to me my uncle was there but he just stand and watch me getting hurt by his wife then what happened last last year is I got blamed for all the things that's happening that was new year my mom was there and by my side and defending me cause I can't fight by myself a lot of drama happened to my life and I hated it. My self can't handle the pain so I always cry at night and doing sh like playing rubber band fidgeting sometimes hurting myself with a blade no one cares what I feel about those things that they did to me like what my aunt did she push the door so hard that I got hit on head and she didn't even care if it bleeds or if it hurts, I'm scared to tell it to my mom because they might have a fight again and it's all my fault I just kept it in silent and just cry about it every night and pray to God that I'll have a better day someday so that I can be happy not always sad hurt and angry because I don't like to be sad for the rest of my life.

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