My baby self

Every day seems to go by quickly since I lost my teenage and never experienced the same level of enjoyment that girls my age do.

I was a young lady at that age of 9 Was a nine-year-old child supposed to see all of that

I'm not sure if my father or mother should take the blame or if I'm just unlucky.

All I wanted was a teen life, yet at eleven, I was already 18+

I was given depression and overthinking at the age of 12, when all I wanted was a princess outfit..

When I was 13, I wanted a cake for my birthday, and i got treated like garbage. Did I not deserve it or was it inappropriate for me to ask for my birthday cake?

And they ask you why did you cut your hair For the sake of the tiny girl inside of me—who doesn't deserve it—I felt like cutting my wrist, so I cut my hair.

I watch the fathers with there little girls and I wonder what I did to deserve this I can’t forget I can’t forgive cause now I’m scared that everyone I love will leave

You locked me in there even though I told you I was afraid of the dark. You forced me to do things I never wanted to do.

Im kind of girl, I'll grin and laugh with you, yet at night I'd stare into space and wonder if I really deserve it all.

I deserved the change to be a child

You said that treating me with affection would make me a pampered girl.

But you pampered him with kindness and the love that I sought; why was it so difficult to love you, little girl?

You wanted to treat me that way, then why did you get her pregnant in the first place? Oh Maybe I was an unwanted child.

When my mother asked if I wanted to throw a party for my 16th birthday, I said simply no, although it was always your dream to have a big celebration. She then questioned what I should have said, that I didn't have enough friends or that I wished that I never exist

I almost turned into an adult, but all I wanted was a teenage life

Is this the kind of child you wanted mother and father to have a little one that looks to older men for comfort?

Doing the chores or the works was never my hobby but I had no choice but to obey

Moon began to learn my secrets, rain turned into my comforter, and my pillow became my listener.

And I started to understand that, no matter what I accomplish, I will never be good enough for you will I?

Girl my age should be out having fun not cutting their own wrist or drinking salt water

I smile as if nothing hurts, girl, am I the greatest?

I only wanted a teddy and some candy, but I ended up with getting trauma and a scar.

All I wanted was a teenage life

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