I’m sorry...

A yawn escaped the brunette’s mouth as the bell indicated class has ended rang. He was finding interest in the earlier letter. It said to meet them at the rooftop after school. He walked quickly up there, of course with a crowd of other people following him for fun since he was the popular kid.

Up there, a familiar orange was seen, holding a bouquet of flowers in hand and a love letter. Dazai stepped forwards with a slight smirk. Him? He didn’t expect this person out of everyone to be here.

-Chuuya?

The redhead stayed silent for another moment before bringing the flowers in hand forwards and offered the boy in front of him. He was blushing and a stuttering mess, how cute.

-I l-like you, Dazai! W-Would you g-go out with m-me?

Wow. Just wow. Dazai could have never expect the redhead to like him. After all their rivalry and bantering, Chuuya still managed to like him. Just how sad it was for the redhead. How could the smaller one have guessed that the boy in front of him would do worse than just rejecting him? The poor little boy...

-You like me?- Dazai repeated, still surprised at the revelation.

-Yes, I like you... I’ve always do.

Dazai just couldn’t help himself, he really couldn’t... The brunette started laughing as the crowd around the both of them also did.

-You think I’d like you? Really? Pffftttt!— How could I ever like a person like you? No one would ever like you if you’re unattractive, Nakahara.

Ow... It hurt so much... Chuuya felt as if a thousand knifes were stabbing him. The laughter... The insults... He couldn’t take it. Tears fell down from his eyes it stained the love letter in his hand. As if they were fuel, Dazai snatched the bouquet of flowers Chuuya was holding and stomped on it while laughing at him as if he was a joke. Well, they were not wrong... He was a joke. The redhead quickly dashed away as tears started to blur his vision.

-

It has been 2 days. 2 days without Chuuya. Dazai was starting to get worried— No, how could he? He’s not gay... maybe? He doesn’t have an interest in dating nor anyone... does he? He was curious right now. Was he too harsh with Chuuya? Was it too much for the other boy? Oh well, he probably will just apologize to him...

The brunette walked around as he tried to look for Akutagawa, the redhead’s best friend. Soon, he was met with the familiar black hair at the corner of room.

-Hey, Akutagawa-kun! Do you know where Chuuya is?

There was a moment of silence as the blackhead glared at him before replying with a cold voice, his gaze dashing away to somewhere else as he talked.

-He came yesterday but not today.

-Then do you know his address?- Dazai asked curiously. He doesn’t usually care much for the redhead, but he wasn’t his “usual” today.

-If I’m not wrong, it’s at XXX-XXX. He’s probably home alone, his parents are out for the month.

-Thank you.

For the month? That was long... but it’s not Dazai’s problem, so whatever.

-

His footsteps didn’t make a noise as the brunette stood in front of a large house. He knocked on the door but instead of somebody coming out, the door itself creaked open with only a single knock. There wasn’t anyone looking so he guessed he could just walk in, right? Right...?

Inside the house was dark, not even a single light bulb was on. Dazai didn’t really care much as he kept walking in. He checked first was the kitchen, nothing. He just saw stuffs tossed around, take-outs and trashes weren’t even in the bin. Dirty. Messy. This wasn’t the Chuuya he knew. No, maybe it just what the redhead showed in class? Yeah, it must be it. Dazai walked a few more steps upstairs until he noticed the bathroom door was opened. He walked in, hoping to see the smaller boy but just to see bandages all around the bathroom, even toilet paper. Something was giving Dazai a bad vibe about this place, and he wasn’t liking it. Dazai backed away from the bathroom with a slight disgusted expression before noticing a door was slight opened.

He made his way there before opening the door, his eyes first noticing the bloody bandages and knife on the floor. What is that? Weird... His eyes slowly went up until he stopped.

-CHUUYA!

He ran towards the body dangling in the air as he quickly took off the ropes around his neck, bringing the smaller figure into his lap as his breaths were heavy. No, no, no, no... Please, this had to be a dream... Please, don’t die... Dazai hugged the corpse tightly as he murmured apologizes, tears staining his eyes after a few seconds.

-I’m sorry... I loved you too, Chuuya...

Dazai whispered with tears to the redhead, though he was too late...

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