venting

Sometimes you have to wonder if it will all be alright, you worry about school , life ,Turning into an adult, becoming independent. You know life will have many challenges but what are you to do you can't hide under your parents arm forever,which you definitely don't want.its suffocating living in a place where you can't do anything be anything and your only purpose most of the time is to be of help to them.They curse you call you with words that seem so hard and yet you have to remain respectful, dutiful kind ,blah... blah... blah... that's all in in your head when you tune them out.You were hardly there. i know you tbh and yet I do love you , I don't know , you give promises you can't keep , both of you .you only talk when it has something to do with her , you seem to only want her as if I'm not important.We all know who your favorite is, you treat her so much better, you hardly hit her, while we mostly used to get hit, she eats and get told by the doctor that she's overweight while that was never the case for us , we had to bare hunger for hours unend waiting only for sthm to come only for her, then we tried to understand now we won't understand. you all speak to me as if i don't have feeling, like I don't matter, you only speak to me when it's something that suits you . what I think is boring not important what you think is always right. I don't have much to say about you tbh you are a whole don't know about now , you live a life one could never envy with a man nobody would ever want, with thoughts nobody supports , with morals everyone questions, what are you going to do , they are going to suffer if you continue like this .You guys should stop it's toxic , cheating , living, everything, you break up , go to different people, disrespect parents, make people suffer when your not in the mood or If your going through a relationship crisis. We all pretend but you pretend so much it's disgusting , one might ever know what is real.you want to leave away from everything and everyone who makes you feel small, you want. to leave the world not having to pretend anymore to suit anybody's ideals, nothing...... nothing.......NOTHING... just make it stop, let it all end

I CANNT WRITE ANYMORE

I can't write anymore

why are you still typing

I wanna stop

I HATE SCHOOL

I hate going out

I don't eat much nowadays

I'm graduating this year

yaytyyyy

I don't gave to go to school

when will this word count end

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