episode -2 : dead is not the answer

( from now onwards the story will be told by Oizumi's side )

I was standing on the bridge and it was raining heavily , the rain drops showered on me , it felt like they were trying to go into my skin... it was painful.....or maybe it was painful because of my grieveness. I was going to die that day I believed I had no one to depend on , I had been living those three years in grieve , distress and loneliness. So, I finally decided to die. I said those words " bye ! " and jumped from the bridge without any second thought.

As I was falling a sudden fear caught me , the fear of death, maybe a part of me still wanted to live , still wanted to find joy in the world. At that time I remembered everyone says " if there is hope there is always a possible way " maybe I should have also kept the hope then maybe my life would have been different .

" I don't want to die ! " I said unconsciously.

I felt my hands cold and like I was not falling anymore , I opened my eyes slowly and I saw a hand holding my hand , I looked up and I found that a boy saved me from falling down.

His eyes colour was blue just like a blue crystal and his skin was fair but pale .

Before I realised I was there on the bridge. Then a sudden feeling of anger urged upon me and I became angry to that unknown boy who saved me from falling. I didn't wanted to believe that I didn't wanted die , that I feared "death" afterall I said to my parents that I am coming to them . That feeling of guilt and sorrow made me bust into anger upon him

I shouted " why! why? why? did you save me, who told you to save me!....i want to die... I want to die ....! " , tears rolled down as I said those words.

That guy come close to me and asked

" is that what you really want ? "

" ..yes... that's way I really..want.. "

" huh... but.. I don't think you wanted to die afterall you said 'I don't want to die' didn't you" " ....but...I also didn't said I want to live and

who the hell are you to say those things to me" I shouted in anger because I feared that he was true.

" are you insane why do you want to die, don't you think of your of your family ! " he shouted me back .

I laughed at what he said and I replied

" me? ...my family?..hahaha... I don't have a family my mom and dad had died and I don't have any motto to live in this cruel world...."

he shouted out " are you blind have your mental capacity retarded... don't you care about the person who loves you.. don't you think of your brother.?? " . Then a sudden feeling arose inside me after hearing those words I felt like I neglected my brother.

he said " remember you have your brother you have a family ! your brother is doing every possible way to support you and his life he cares you very much .. so shouldn't you try to support him instead of leaving him....." , those words that he said made me feel guilty and ashamed, I felt ashamed because I was ignoring my brother's effort, I ignored how he would have been feeling all those years like me, tears rolled down my cheeks as I thought about my brother.

"See he loves you very much..... " . Then I heard someone shouting " Oizumi ! Oizumi "

I at once knew it was my brother , looked back and I found my brother running in the rain, he was wet all over , he didn't even wore slippers and he looked exhausted, I cried even harder after looking at my brother, I felt ashamed of myself about how can I cause so much trouble to my brother. I knew him he would have rushed to find me at once after reading the letter I leaved for him and that's why he didn't even wore slippers. I began to cry loudly

He came running and hugged me tightly

" Oizumi !!! Iam so glad you are safe... Iam really really sorry for not looking after you like them.. I should have payed more attention towards you then work... Iam really sorry my dear sister.. please don't think to leave me, now I only have you in this whole world...."

" sob... sob.. brother I would never leave you again brother.. sob sob " . Brother carried me on his back and moved towards home, I looked back to see the guy who saved me but he was already gone , maybe he left at the time when brother came .

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