Thoughts

✨ Lissie’s POV — When Vex Walks Into My Head Again ✨

I don’t know what’s happening to me these days.

The moment I try to focus on anything — homework, chores, even just scrolling my phone — his face somehow pops into my mind. And boom, concentration gone. Completely gone.

It’s stupid, honestly. One second I’m normal, and the next my heart is thumping so loudly I’m scared someone else might hear it.

Whenever Vex walks into a room, it feels like the air changes.

I feel it before I even see him — that tiny electric jolt under my skin, like my heartbeat skips and then races to catch up. My palms go warm, my breathing gets messy, and I suddenly can’t remember how to act like a decent human.

It’s embarrassing.

I’ll be pretending to study, and all it takes is his voice in the hallway — that calm, confident tone — and my brain just melts. I catch myself staring sometimes, and then quickly look away like I wasn’t doing anything.

But inside? I’m screaming at myself to stay normal.

And when he talks to me…

God.

One “Hey, you good?” and my whole system glitches. I try to reply normally, but my voice goes soft, and my thoughts scatter like a dropped deck of cards. I’m sure he notices the way I play with my fingers or look anywhere except directly at him.

It feels like my heart starts running a marathon whenever he smiles at me.

Like there’s something racing inside me that I can’t switch off.

And no matter how much I try to focus…

my mind keeps drifting back to him.

✨ Vex’s POV — When Lissie Throws My Balance Off ✨

I swear I used to be a perfectly stable person.

Calm. Collected. Focused.

And then Lissie started looking at me with those wide, distracted eyes — the kind where she pretends she’s not staring and yet somehow still is — and suddenly my whole composure started slipping.

Whenever she’s around, I feel this weird pull in my chest.

I try to ignore it, act normal, but it’s impossible. She could be doing the most ordinary thing — tying her hair, tapping her pen, pushing her glasses up — and I lose track of what I was thinking.

The funny thing is, she thinks she hides her reactions well.

She doesn’t.

I notice the way she goes quiet when I walk into the room, the slight panic in her eyes like she just forgot how functioning works. The way her fingers fiddle with anything they can find. The way her cheeks warm up when I ask if she’s okay.

And that… does things to me.

Every time she looks away shyly, my heartbeat picks up just a little. When she brushes past me, even by accident, it feels like static rushing across my skin.

It’s stupid, but sometimes I catch myself watching her — just to see what expression she makes next.

And then I pretend I wasn’t.

She makes me nervous in a way I’m not used to.

Like I’ll say something normal and suddenly worry if it sounded too sharp, too soft, too anything. My mind goes blank around her more than I’d like to admit.

She thinks she’s the only one losing focus.

She has no idea that I’m fighting the same battle.

Every time she glances at me, my pulse jumps.

Every time she smiles, something warm hits me straight in the chest.

And honestly?

I’m scared one day she’ll realize just how much she affects me.

Because it’s getting harder and harder to pretend I’m unaffected…

when the truth is, Lissie makes my whole world shift a little.

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