You Should Love Yourself
Darkness. Pain. Fear. Hunger. Those were the main things going through my head right now Laying on the floor. The thick collar cold around my neck. The heavy chain connecting me to a welded block on the floor in the middle of the room would make noise every time I moved.
I lay there thinking about why I was being punished. "Why did I yell at him?" my voice broken whisper. "He was drunk" I swallowed hard which hurt my tender throat. Sir had push me down the stairs. The glass bottle I was bringing to the kitchen to throw away shattered when I fell. He hit me several times. I didnt think just screamed at him that it was his fault the bottle broke.
The slam of the basement door pulled me out of the memory of what happend. I could hear the creak of each step as he walked before the sound of his bare feet on the hardwood floor. I squeezed my eyes shut, expecting more pain. When my head touched I couldnt help but flinch away.
"Look at me" His voice commanded.
I Slowly opened my eyes and lifted my head enough to look at my master's eyes. He was no longer drunk and had showered. "How long have I been down here?" I wanted to ask but I was not allowed to speak until he told me to.
"Have you learned your Lesson Ram?"
"Yes sir" My voice was quiet and weak.
"Good boy. Stand" Master ordered. He watched as I struggled to stand, falling back to the floor in too much pain. He huffed and kneel next to me before reaching over and unlocking the padlock that connected in my collar and the chain. Once I was free he grabbed my arms and stood suddenly throwing me over his shoulder in the process.
I bit my lip to try and keep from crying out in Pain.
The tears stung as they ran down in my cheeks. Every step he took to go up the stairs to the main floor, and all the way to the bathroom that he designated for me to use.
He stepped in and set me down on the toilet. It was everything I could do not to fall over as he filled the tub with soapy water. Once the water was to his liking he shut it off and turned to me.
He grabbed the hem of my ripped purple tank top and lifted it over my head to take it off. Master put my arms around his neck to stand me up again. He kept one arm around me and used the other to push down my shorts and underware. As soon as my body was *****. Master lifted my body up and set me in the warm bath water. I sighed in relief and instantly relaxed.
"Stay here I need to make a call" Master said as he stood.
"Yes sir" I said softly and he left in the room. I laid back in the bathtub and rested my head on the edge of the tub. My whole body was tender and I was exhausted.
"Ram" His voice scared me and I jumped up to a sitting position. Big mistake. Sharp pain in my chest had me hissing in pain.
"Im so sorry sir! Im sorry for falling asleep without permission" I spoke in a panic.
"Its ok Ram. Lets get you washed up and dressed. I have company coming over and you have dinner to cook" Master's voice was gentle as he spoke.
"Yes Sir" I took a deep breath and started washing while he watched. When I was finished he helped me to stand and step out. Master wrapped the big fluffy towel around my hips. We both turned to look at the dirty water which had a red tint to it. "Im sorry Master you had to punish me so Bad, Master" I whispered to him.
"Its Ok, Ram.Im sorry for hitting you so hard" He sighed being weirdly kind. "Lets go get you dressed. Im starving and Im sure you are too. You haven't eaten in a couple of days."
"Yes Master" I take careful steps and slowly make my way up the stairs next to the bathroom to the attic which has been my room for two years.
I sigh and walk over to my laundry basket to put my towel there after drying off. "I already picked out what I want you to wear."
"Ok Master" my usual response. I turn and face him *****.
Master walks over to me and give me a gentle kiss on my still swollen lips. "Get dressed and go make dinner." He turns and goes downstairs once again.
I smiled and go to sit on my bed, Putting the purple silk udies on followed by the black skinny jeans that are laying beside me. I pull the band up over my ***, button, and then zip the jeans. I pull my shirt on before going to the mirror to fix my hair.
The reflextion in the mirror looks awful. Black eye, Broken nose, Split lips, swollen and bruise jaw. My eyes wander down my reflection. The crimson crop top with thin shoulder straps does little to hide the bruises, bites and hickeys all over my skin.
I sigh and head back down to the main floor. As soon as I got to the kitchen I started making dinner. Dinner was almost done when the door bell rang. Before Master could say to answer the door, my eye was at the peek hole to see who was there. My heart rate picked up and I swallowed hard as I open the door and step aside to allow the guest entry "Welcome. Please allow me to take your coats."
All five visitors handed me their coats before taking off their shoes and going into the living room where Master was waiting for them. After hanging the coats I went back to the kitchen to continue to cook dinner. When the smothered chicken, Mashed red potatos and broccoli were done I set the table for Master and his two friends ( along with their two slaves as well ) You can do this Ram.They aren't drinking yet. Maybe Master will let me just go in the bed.
I take a deep breath and put on my best smile before standing in the doorway to the living room. "Master, Dinner is ready for you and your friends." I keep my eyes down on the floor as I speak.
They all stood and went to the dinning room table while I stayed where I was, Waiting on an order. The food was ready all five of them had drinks made and poured. "Ram come here."
"Right away Master!" I quickly do as told and go stand next to my Master. All while hoping my legs dont give out while they shake under my weight. My stomach growls loudly as I stand there.
My eyes were on the floor so when Master grabbed my hips and pulls me in his lap I was startled "I think you need to sit for a moment." He whispered in my ears before nibbling on it.
"Im sorry Master" My hushed voice came out on instinct. I was trying hard not to moan from him nibbling in my ear.
To Be Continue.
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