NOSTALGIC DAYS

Hey Pristine Eko (that's me),

You know what talking to oneself is the best medicine to ignore loneliness when you have no friends. Some finds its crazy but I tell you it's the best thing . I am not sure if talking to myself like a schizophrenic is the answer I'm looking for. But I have got to try.

My head's dizzy thinking about my awful life.

I'm Pristine the 3rd child in the Eko family but this doesn't deny the fact that I have two more siblings after me . You know what having a lot of siblings are sometimes great fun but there are also certain limitations, I have two elder sisters one younger brother just after me and a little sister. When I was born my mom was not at all happy with me cause she wanted a boy child instead of a girl child , l heard she cried a lot at that time but I guess she had her own reasons.

When I was young my mom used to dress me in boy's clothes,I also had a boy haircut and looked exactly like a boy also the greatest thing was that I had all the hobbies of that of a boy..l liked guns more than dolls, had a no.of boyfriend's than girlfriends blah...blah...

You know what after my baby brother was born things started changing my mom wanted me to dress like girls, act like those feminine girls, things were changing at a very fast rate . One day my mom dressed me in girls clothing I was like "what the heck" l cried a lot and refused to wear those clothes I was afraid that my male friends would make fun of me but my mom scolded me and said,"Do you want to become a boy even after you you grow up?"At last I lose and wore that dress till the end of the day. My mom was like,"that's my girl"

l really don't know why but since my childhood I really didn't liked disappointing my mom l was always taken care by my dad who was the most loving father in the whole universe.

l was full of confidence since my early age because I was good at everything. l was the topper of the class, good at speaking, favourite student of every teacher and also the class monitor but as I was growing I started lacking confidence because I found myself to be an ugly creature. l was fat, dark in appearance, and my teeth needed correction l used to think that l was the most ugliest creature with a big mouth. And the worst thing was that l didn't looked like my other siblings I jst thought that I was adopted and was the black sheep of the family. My mother would always tell me that I'll become her most beautiful daughter but I knew it was a total lie and I didn't even stand a chance with my sisters as they were the goddess of beauty and also my younger brother was the chocolate boy of his school. Nobody would tell us that we were siblings by looking at us unless they did some investigation.

I will turn 16 this month and joining a new school a lot of my old friends were saying that I changed a lot and they couldn't even recognise me properly and I would be like(in my head)"how could they not recognise such an ugly creature".But yeah sometimes I agree that I have changed, I am a new me now.

"Let's start fresh" I would be saying every morning to myself. I am a grown up now and I am not the old me , I have changed a lot i am a normal girl now who wear normal girl dresses and a well behaved shy nature girl.

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