lost myself into him...

HERE WHERE I LOST MYSELF~~~

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-looks at his eyes - this is where I lost myself

Looking at his eyes....deep into his eyes....make me think........WHO I AM ??!

Makes me think....that his eyes are only filled with happiness ???

Or it's all lie.....

Here is my story......where I lost myself into him.....

Starting from....a tuition...

That is where I met him....

-chuckles- not a student like me but a teacher.....

there were 30 students....yet he chose me out of all students....and taught me alone....

I sat alone with him...while all kids where with other teachers...

Still... I wonder…what makes him to choose me…

and I thought he will choose me in future too....but he proved me wrong...

I am ....being an option...to not be chosen as one by him....

now i wonder...what made him not to choose me

And I still wonder...why I am still holding hopes love …for him when I know he won't be mine...

When I know he already moved on

when I know he married to someone

When I know he only gave me hope and vanished

When I know he doesn't need me anymore

when I know he won't choose me

When I know he doesn't want to see me

when I know he doesn't wants to hear me

When I know he doesn't need of me

am I being used now ???

He talked to me...at morning

at afternoon

at evening

at night till.....2 am

hearing my blabbering

hearing my all words

Hearing my voice

hearing me humming

hearing me singing....

He didn't judge me

But he left me ......

His smiles heal me...

When ever I see him smiling... I will smile like fool...thinking how someone smile can make me this happy

And his smile did

-smiles - still thinking about him...making me smile alone...wondering...he won't remember me anymore....after what I did...

I did a sin....but he didn't say anything, but he left me alone in darkness...without telling a word …

Do I deserve this…??

maybe who knows what I did.....that I deserve this from him.....

this is 8 th year....waiting for him...

No to get chosen by him but to ask forgiveness....but to beg....

To tell him...that I didn't do any of this.....

(but the girl who u married did)

I wanted to tell him the truth....but I wish him to be happy with whomever he wants

He still thinking that I don't know where he is right now

he still thinking that I don'Butnow his number

but his guess always end up getting wrong

still in my phone his...new no...with a name not mine...

staring at the no .....I wanted to call him...but what will happen if I call him ???

will his marriage be fake.??

he will choose me ??

nahhh .....he still chose her.....

(who ruined my love)

here........more to say but silence is better ......

A lie which make others happy.......

Is what I choose....

I truth which hurts....is always me who didn't get chosen by anyone....

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I lost myself into his eyes.........🥀

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don't mind me.....🥀🧘🏻‍♂️

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