The school gates felt less like an entrance and more like a checkpoint. Ellen kept her chin tucked into the collar of her hoodie, her eyes fixed on the scuffed toes of her sneakers. To the hundreds of students swarming the hallways, she was part of the architecture—as static and unremarkable as a locker or a water fountain. This was her superpower: the ability to become a blur.
In her first-period English class, the air was thick with the scent of floor wax and teenage bravado. Ellen took her seat in the back corner, the "Dead Zone," where the fluorescent lights flickered just enough to give her a headache. She opened her notebook, but she didn’t take notes on the lecture. Instead, her pen began to scratch rhythmically against the paper, bleeding black ink into the shape of a girl trapped inside a glass jar. The girl in the drawing had no mouth.
"Ellen? Are you with us?" Mr. Harrison’s voice broke through the Static.
The scratching stopped. Ellen felt the heat climb her neck, a prickly, suffocating rash of anxiety. She didn't look up, but she could feel the collective shift of the room—the way her classmates leaned back, waiting for the "weird girl" to stumble.
"Yes," she whispered, the word catching in her dry throat. "Sorry."
"We're discussing Holden’s red hunting hat," Mr. Harrison said, his voice softening with a pity that felt heavier than an insult. "Any thoughts on why he wears it when he’s feeling lonely?"
Ellen swallowed hard. She thought about her own hoodie, the way the fabric felt like a shield against a world that was constantly trying to bruise her. "Maybe," she started, her voice barely audible over the hum of the air conditioner, "it’s because if he looks different on the outside, it explains why he feels so different on the inside. Like... if people stare at the hat, they aren’t staring at him."
The classroom went silent. It wasn't the mocking silence she was used to, but a brief, startled pause. Then, a chair creaked in the row next to her.
A boy she hadn't noticed before—new, with messy dark hair and a denim jacket covered in patches—was looking at her. He wasn't smirking. He wasn't looking away. He was watching her with a terrifyingly focused intensity, as if he were trying to read the ink stains on her fingers.
When the bell finally shrieked, signaling the end of the period, Ellen scrambled to shove her notebook into her bag. She needed to get to the library, to the tiny carrel hidden behind the reference section where no one ever went. But as she stood up, a shadow blocked her path.
"That was a good point," the boy said. His voice was low, gravelly, and lacked the polished cruelty of the other students. "About the hat. I get it."
Ellen froze. Her heart hammered a frantic rhythm against her ribs. Don't look at him. If you look at him, he becomes real. If he becomes real, he can hurt you.
"I have to go," she managed to choke out, bolting past him before he could say another word. She didn't stop running until she reached the sanctuary of the library, her lungs burning with the cold realization that for the first time in years, someone had actually looked through the glass jar and seen the girl inside.
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she's inocent 🫠and she's having anxiety
2026-03-17
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