The Only Person Coming to Save Her Is Herself
The silence in the Blackwood estate was never truly quiet. It was a heavy, pressurized hum—the sound of central air, the distant whir of a high-tech security system, and the rhythmic ticking of a grandfather clock in the foyer that felt like a countdown to a life I no longer recognized.
I woke up at 5:15 AM, not to the sound of an alarm, but to the wet, ragged cough of my three-year-old, Leo. His small body was a furnace against mine, his curls damp with sweat. My own head throbbed, a dull ache behind my eyes that had become my constant companion. This was the reality they didn’t show in the glossy magazines I used to grace. There were no stylists here, no soft lighting, just the smell of sour milk, Vick’s VapoRub, and the looming shadow of a man who expected perfection while providing none of the tools to achieve it.
I carried Leo downstairs, my joints popping with every step. My silk robe, a relic from my modeling days, was stained with applesauce and frayed at the hem. I didn't look in the mirrors as I passed them. I didn't need to. I knew the girl with the hollow cheeks and the dead eyes was still there, trapped under layers of exhaustion.
By 7:00 AM, the kitchen smelled like burnt toast and expensive espresso, the latter for Marcus. I was balancing Leo on one hip while trying to stir oatmeal with my free hand. Leo whimpered, his face flushed.
"It’s okay, baby," I whispered, pressing my lips to his forehead. "Mommy’s got you."
The heavy tread of Italian leather shoes echoed on the marble. Marcus entered the kitchen like he was stepping onto a stage. Every hair was in place, his suit charcoal gray and tailored so precisely it looked like armor. He didn't look at me. He looked at his watch.
"He’s still coughing," Marcus said, his voice flat. He didn't ask how I was. He didn't ask if I’d slept. He simply noted a flaw in his environment.
"He has a fever, Marcus. I was up with him most of the night," I said, my voice sounding raspy even to my own ears. "I think he needs to see the pediatrician today."
Marcus finally turned toward us. He reached out, ruffling Leo’s hair for a brief, performative second. "Be a big boy for your mother, Leo," he muttered. It was the only affection he offered today, a hollow gesture that didn't reach his eyes. Then, he pulled his hand away and frowned at his palm as if he’d touched something contaminated.
"I need the card for the co-pay," I said, the words sticking in my throat. Every time I asked for money, it felt like swallowing glass. "And he needs new medicine. We ran out of the infant Motrin."
Marcus sighed, a sound of pure, unadulterated annoyance. He pulled out his wallet, flicking through crisp hundreds and various platinum cards, before pulling out a single fifty-dollar bill and placing it on the granite island, far enough away that I would have to walk over to get it.
"Fifty? Marcus, the consultation alone is more than that, and the prescription—"
"Use your head, Vera. I bought the groceries myself on Sunday. If you managed the household properly, you wouldn't be constantly begging for more. It’s a cough. Give him tea. Stop looking for excuses to spend money because you're bored."
"I'm not bored," I snapped, my headache coming in full force. "I'm tired. There's a difference."
He stepped closer, his shadow falling over me and the sick child in my arms. The scent of his expensive cologne was suffocating. "You're tire ? Vera, please. You don't have a job. You don't have a boss. You have one responsibility, and yet, I come down to a kitchen that smells like a pharmacy and a wife who looks like she crawled out of a gutter. Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is to bring associates home when everything look like this?"
“You shouldn’t have fired the maid” I said, my gaze moving away. “She was a big help.”
“A maid ? When you are always at home? Just say you like doing nothing all day.” Marcus said, looking almost indignant by my words.
“I’m taking care of our kid, i’m cooking, cleaning” I almost regretted looking back at him, his eyes were narrowed and his expression was one of annoyance.
“Congratulations. You did the bare minimum required to exist. Do you want a trophy for doing what every other functioning adult does without complaining?"
He didn't wait for an answer. He picked up his briefcase, adjusted his tie in the reflection of the stainless-steel fridge, and walked toward the door.
"Fix yourself," he called out over his shoulder. "I'm having dinner with the Board tonight. Don't wait up, and for God’s sake, take a shower."
The heavy front door clicked shut. The silence rushed back in, colder than before.
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