my dear Luar

My dear Luar.

As I sit down to write this, my heart is heavy with a mix of emotions - love, longing, and acceptance. I've come to realize that my love for you is unwavering, but it's not enough to change the course of your life.

I love you with all my heart, I love you with all my soul, I need you so much, I need your hugs, caresses, kisses, but when I remember those moments we had together, those promises on those nights of love, they hurt like stakes digging into my heart.

I miss you more than words can express. Every moment we shared, every laugh, every tear, every whispered promise - they're all etched in my memory like a bittersweet melody. I need you in ways I never thought possible, but I also understand that need isn't always synonymous with having.

The truth is, in your world, you've found someone else. Someone who brings joy, comfort, and love into your life. And though it's hard for me to accept, I want you to know that I'm truly happy for you. I want you to be happy, even if that happiness doesn't include me.

My love for you hasn't diminished; it's just evolved. I love you enough to let you go, to wish you all the best, and to hope that you'll find everything your heart desires. I'll always cherish the memories we made, and though it's time for us to part ways, know that you'll forever hold a piece of my heart.

I know that when our eyes meet whenever we pass by each other, there is still something, something we both know is there, I know we both try to act like we don't exist, But the tension tries to trap us to get back together, I would like that to happen, but our worlds are different and that means that we don't belong with each other.

Sometimes I think about you and me, and what would happened if we didn't let go each other I think that we would be lovers if you didn't break your promise, and that hurts me, but I understand that we don't belong to be together, I love you so much a lot, more than you think, but I have to let you go for my own good, cuz I know you don't think of me anymore, I try to say, to think that it doesn't hurt me but that the biggest lie that I ever told.

I love you, and I'll never get tired of saying it, oh my Luar, I need your kisses, your hugs, I need you, I miss you, but I have to let you go.

And I just want to let you know that even though I still love you, and I still miss you, I wish you all the happiness with the person who is now by your side, that person who is now the owner of your caresses, kisses and promises, I hope that the love you have with her never goes out.

With all my love, Mayan

*fun fact! This poem was inspired by the rdr2 game, where this ladie (I don't remember her name) sends a letter to Arthur Morgan. Luar is someone whose name I'm not going to mention, but he was the love of my life, the person I once loved with all my soul, but our paths went different ways, and our hearts lost its way together*

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