Being Alone

Everyday goes by slowly making me suffer. The more I sit alone in solitude the less I fathom affection. If there is any possible escape from this institution, then I hope to find a way out. I've all my sanity, I've been set up. Not only was I put here with full mental health, I was put here purposefully knowing that I was perfectly fine. Not only is this a downside, it's somehow a threat. I feel as if I manage to leave this place, there'll be another pitfall awaiting me on the outside.

Unfortunately, I feel as if I'm subconsciously losing mentality. Being here gives me anxiety. I'm afraid I'm becoming a schizophrenic due to sleepless nights of worrying what will happen to me. That too includes attention deficit disorder since they don't let me leave this small room meaning I cannot interact with anyone.

As loneliness slowly consumes me day by day, I start losing sanity. I can't process anything without other beings in my life. Without anything to truly function for, I start to think deep thoughts. Thoughts that make me feel unloved like, why won't my family visit me? Why would they even put me in this place? Do they really care for me? My head feels dizzier and dizzier everyday. The more I think about this, the more my head hurts. Maybe I should stop. I never know if someone might actually visit me.

As everyday passes by, I start counting the days and nights. It has been a few weeks. Nobody. Nobody at all. I feel so alone. So unhappy. What should I do? How do I escape? How should I prove I'm okay? I want fo feel loved again. I want to be held in someone's arms. I want someone to tell me how much I mean to them.

I want to be freed.

Everyday is the same. I wake up, eat, sit in this empty room all day, and sleep. I feel so helpless. If this were solitary confinement, I would've been okay to go home already. But no, this is different. It's at least been a month. Maybe even a few months. If I really was ill, putting me in this place would just make me lose my mind. If there is one thing thats making me go crazy, its just being by myself, like I've mentioned before. If I were feeling this way at home, I would've talked to someone about it, but instead I'm trapped here. Why would they do this to me? I really wanna go home. I wanna be happy again. I hope this is just a dream. I hope this doesn't last forever. I can't withstand the agony of being alone for eternity. I wanna wake up, I wanna wake up, I wanna wake up, I wanna wake up, I wanna wake up!

... I wanna wake up....

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