chapter 2

THE QUESTIONS

WHY ME?

ENDLESS WHITE – TIMELESS

A vast white emptiness. No walls. No sky. Only silence.

A YOUNG GIRL, barely in her twenties, stands alone. Her face is swollen from crying. She watches as GOD slowly begins to walk away, His light fading into the distance.

She desperately runs after Him.

GIRL

Please...

Don't leave.

Please don't disappear like everyone else.

God stops but doesn't turn around.

GIRL (voice breaking)

You can't leave me like this.

Not until you answer me.

Every single question I've carried since I was a little girl.

I've spent my whole life asking them.

Don't leave me with them again.

God slowly turns toward her. His eyes are calm, filled with compassion.

GOD

Ask.

Ask everything your heart has been carrying.

Hide nothing from Me.

When your heart has spoken its last word...

I will answer.

GIRL

I don't need time.

I've rehearsed these questions every night...

For years.

They're carved into my soul.

She wipes her tears but they won't stop.

She looks at Him.

GIRL

Tell me...

What was my fault?

Silence.

GIRL

Was it my fault that I was born?

Did I ever ask You...

to send me into a house where love never lived?

Did I ask for parents who made me feel like I was a burden instead of a daughter?

Did I ask to wake up every morning wondering...

"What's wrong with me?"

Because that's how I grew up.

Believing...

I was the mistake.

God remains silent.

GOD

Go on.

GIRL

My father...

I spent my entire childhood waiting for him.

Waiting for one hug.

One "I'm proud of you."

One moment where he'd look at me...

the way fathers look at their daughters.

But he never did.

No matter how hard I tried...

I was never enough.

Her breathing becomes uneven.

GIRL

Then he married again.

I never hated her.

I respected her.

I obeyed her.

I stayed silent...

Even when every word she spoke made me feel invisible.

Every single day...

I wondered why existing felt like a crime.

She closes her eyes.

GIRL

Then there was my mother...

The only place that ever felt like home.

When she hugged me...

the world didn't feel so heavy.

People say,

"God couldn't be everywhere... so He created mothers."

She looks directly at God.

Then why...

Why did You take mine?

I was sixteen.

I still needed her.

I still needed someone to call me "my child."

Her voice completely breaks.

Do You know what it's like...

to lose the only person who ever made you feel loved?

Silence.

Tears roll down God's face, but He says nothing.

GIRL

After she died...

Everyone expected me to become strong.

Nobody asked if I wanted to be.

My brother...

He was all I had left.

But life took him away too.

Not by death...

Just by distance.

Until one day...

I realized...

I had nobody.

She laughs through tears.

Isn't that funny?

You can stand in a room full of people...

and still have no one.

She looks down.

Then...

I fell in love.

For the first time...

I thought someone finally saw me.

I trusted him with every broken piece of my heart.

I believed...

"Finally... someone chose me."

Long pause.

Two years later...

I found out...

he had chosen my best friend instead.

Do You know what hurts the most?

Not losing him.

It's realizing...

the person who promised to heal your wounds...

was the one who made them deeper.

She wipes away her tears.

I wanted to study.

I had dreams.

Tiny dreams.

Nothing impossible.

I wanted to become someone my mother would've been proud of.

But I wasn't allowed.

I worked instead.

Every day...

I watched my dreams die quietly...

while everyone told me to accept my fate.

She falls to her knees.

Then I married.

Not because life was beautiful...

But because I thought maybe...

love had finally found me.

I was wrong.

The man I called my husband...

came home drunk.

He shouted.

He broke things.

Then...

he broke me.

Every bruise healed.

But every word he spoke...

stayed inside me.

She hugs herself.

When I ran back to my family...

begging for help...

they didn't ask if I was safe.

They only said,

"You chose him."

"Now live with him."

So I went back.

Because I had nowhere else to go.

Her voice becomes a whisper.

Tell me...

How many times does a heart have to break...

before it finally stops hoping?

She looks at God through endless tears.

I never asked You for money.

I never asked You for a perfect life.

I never asked You to make me special.

I only asked...

to be loved.

Was that really...

too much?

She slowly stands.

Every person I loved...

left me.

Every place I called home...

became another battlefield.

Every dream I held...

turned into another goodbye.

So tell me...

Why me?

What did I do...

to deserve a life that felt like a punishment...

before I even knew what life was?

She looks into God's eyes.

I'm tired.

Not sleepy.

Tired in my soul.

I've carried pain for so long...

I don't remember what peace feels like.

I don't want to fight anymore.

If this is what living is...

then I don't want it.

Silence fills the endless white space.

God looks at her with tears in His own eyes.

He takes one slow step toward her.

TO BE CONTINUE.............

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