Nothing Ventured, Nothing Lost
What is the point of this power, if I can't save the people I love? What is the purpose of letting me in, just to send me back again.
I whimpered as blood covered my hands, I embraced him in my arms for the last time as I kissed him tenderly like how I used to. When our lips brushed against each other, time was already setting for another. Those eyes that were once filled with warmth, now drowned in tears streaming down on my face.
"I- I love you, Luziana..." As he held my hand and inserted a ring he once swore. “P-please.. don't go…”
'As much as I don't want to, I need to.'
"**Luzy! ...did you know that there is this recent game circulating right now? It was all the buzz these past few days called 'The princess's diary**! " my friend babbled as we headed to our classroom. As a girl who studies a lot every night, now’s not a good time to be energetic like her. “**Oh, come on, it's the first day! I know you'd like it because you read a lot**.”
Yes, I do read a lot. I am Luziana Valentine, an ordinary girl. I mean I wouldn't say I'm ordinary, because I'm basically a living misfortune that has been stripped of her happiness and justice. A girl who lacks life's fortune. I was born fatherless and when I turned 14, my mother remarried and I lived under the same roof as them.
Life would be so much happier if that didn't happen back then.
\[**FLASHBACK**\]
“**You’re the reason why she's on the verge of dying! You are an insolent brat**!” As my face brushed against his hard slap, I fell to the ground and he wrecked havoc inside the hospital. “**You're the one to blame for everything! Now, you're gonna work so you can pay my debts! Got it**!” He aggressively pished me off to the wall as he walked off and it hit the back of my head.
I remembered my mother's words from before "**Your step- father is reliable, you know? he's the kindest man I've met**." reliable my foot.
A normal person would be in pain, but this pain cannot be compared to the pain of watching my mother unconscious in this hospital. When she fell into a coma, I wasn't just neglected and bullied, I was despised and blamed.
My stepfather tortured me to death by making me do illegal things just to gain money from it. 'From the father I never had, to a father I wish I never have.'
I'm not surprised, I just grew numb. My mouth was sealed and I was beaten day and night. I tried to run away from them, but I was caught instead. My mom's the only one I have, and now she's lying here miserable.
“**Hey! You rat! Come here for just a sec**.” My step-brother exclaimed. I abruptly went towards him to avoid commotion but-
\***PACK**!\*
“**Didn’t I tell you to wash my clothes**?!” He shouted as he aggressively rubbed his clothes to my face. “**B-but brother, y-you didn't tell me**…” He looked at me with terror on his face. “**Are you talking back? You want me to tell our father or should I just kill you here right now**?” He threatened as he gripped my jaw hard. My tears fell upon my face as I wept nonstop.
"**T-the brother who w-welcomed me with open arms, now t-treating me like an animal**." I forced a word out of my mouth, desperately grasping for air. Those were the last words, before he choked me nearly to death.
Ever since that day, I've lived hell for days and became a punching bag. I couldn't even attend school because of the bruises and pain. My life literally changed overnight and it turned upside down.
When I turned 16, my mother woke up from a coma, and she was never the same. One time, I caught her crying over a man I never met in my life. She even tried to kill herself, and she kept repeating the exact same word "**Let me go back**…”
" **M-mom! It's me, Luziana**..."
"**Luziana?...No, you don't belong here**!" My mom cried out and I was confused. "**Come with Mom, Luziana. Come here**." She was being scary back then and as a result, I ran away from her. From the person I felt the safest to, and now, I don't know anymore.
After that day, I found out that Mom had killed herself. My step-father and brother faked their cries at her funeral, and it's like watching a spectacular show. I didn't realize how lost I was, and I just knew from the blood in my hands... That I tried to kill myself to ran away from those demons.
\[**END OF FLASHBACK**\]
"**And the most interesting part is that the villainess has the same name as yours! Isn't it cool**?!" Micah excitedly giggled.
"**Hey, are you even listening? Luzy? Why the hell are you dozing off**?...” She curiously asked, waving her hands at my sight.
I looked at her and said “**How about you? have you played it**?” I asked. “**No, not yet hehe… but, I will**!”
This is my best friend Micah, she's the only girl who's important to me. Her mom and my mom were best friends and they were the ones who saved me that day, I'm basically living with them right now and I'm happily adopted-sister of her.
\***RING**\*
“**Well, the bell rang. We should go. We'll play it when we get home later, wait for me okay**!” She ran off happily and left me with a bright smile. "**See you later, Luzy! Micah loves you**!" She formed her arms in a heart shape and I scoffed at her waving goodbye.
'***Tsk. hmm***'
\[**After Class**\]
"**Luzy! I'm here**." Micah shouted as she ran towards me at the school gate like a little girl. "**Hey, you're not a child anymore**." She smiled at me with a teasing look "**Why? You missed me, don't you**?" I scoffed at her "**Why would I**.
We started on our way and we bid our farewell to the sunset. " **By the way, Mom texted me, she made beef stew**-"
"**What?! Our favorite**???" She dramatically exclaimed.
...
" **I feel like I'm having indigestion**." I looked at her disgusted.
"**That's because you immediately lied down after you ate**." I explained while downloading the game she insisted on playing. " **And your tummy's waving at me**." I teased her and giggled. "**Nooooo, I am on a diet and Mom suddenly made it, how could I refuse**?" She fake a cry while rubbing her belly. She then turned to me "**Luzy, you need to start playing the game**..." She suddenly look at me in the eyes, determined and serious. " **What are you doing**." I shrugged her off and looked at the game's screen display.
"**I just... Really ... Need to**.."
" **I need to take this dump and burn the whole world afterwards**." She hurriedly ran towards the bathroom and left a fart in the room. "**YUCK**!"
...
Time has flown by and it was just Micah and I, the only ones still awake tonight with our bright phone screens brushing our faces like spotlights.
" **Gahhh I died again**?!" She heavily whispered.
"**Hey, shut up or you'll wake them all up**." I answered with a calm airy voice. She kicked her feet with rage and I can tell why.
It's because of this little game that kept us killed over and over again. I mean, it's supposed to be a story to be played as a main character...
'Why are we the Villainesses?'
"**Is this why they said it's not the typical harem game we all know**?" She complained, hands over her head as her dark circles started showing off. With that, she dozed off, and she snored very quickly. "**Is this girl on drugs**?" I uttered.
She must've been so exhausted trying to find another response for the character not to get killed. She even cooked noodles to hype her energy up and switch the routes of her character, but in the end, she still ends up dead.
"**Well, the same goes for me**." I smiled at her and covered her with her comforter. I immediately turned off her phone and charged it to the circuit and I went back to my room and studied for the subjects tomorrow for a bit.
It's already 2 am, I finished all my study sessions for the day. But, somehow, I couldn't forget the villainess in the story. Her name, her struggles, personality, and mannerisms.
'*It's similar to me*.'
She was despised by her step-family and only her Mother cared for her, yet most of the time, she was alone.
Is that why she turned into a Villain, and still died at the end? The questions stopped when I turned on my phone to play that game.
"***Let's go for another round, Luzy***."
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