DARKEST ROAD

In our lives, we have to go through the darkest road of our journey. In my case, I already passed from that road and that is loving someone who doesn't really love me.

It's been a month. I was absent for 1 month after my breakup with that jerk. I can't even say his name now, I even don't want to think about him. I don't want to hear his name nor to see him. but I don't have a choice because we're classmate. We are already in our 4th year in college and we will graduate next month. that's why I was obligued to go to the university. My parents owns this university but I don't want to use their power. 1 month is enough. I know in my one month of being absent isn't not acceptable in this university but no one tried to asked me why.

I just shrugged.

As I enter our classroom, everyone turned their gazes to me and shocks were visible to their faces. I am late and I've never been late before. I just walk toward the empty sit, I passed Brixton that I know he's looking to me right now. there is an empty chair beside him which my sit before but I chose to sit beside Jovan. He looks confused and shocked at the same time. I din't even bothered to look at him. I hear whispers from my classmates but I really don't want to bother myself about my surroundings anymore. I just went here to learn so I can fucking graduate next month.

Brixton

We all looked to Emma as she enter our classroom. She's been absent the whole one after the incident in the bar. I admit it. I kinda miss her and I'm a bit guilty why she's absent.

I looked at her. Her face is blank and cold. he didn't bothered to look at me neighter to our classmates and even to our professor who seems shocked.

She chose to sit beside Jovan. I was expecting that she will sit beside me but she didn't. I look on the chair beside me. She used to sit here. Everything have changed about her, her personality the way she act and the way she wear clothes. She's wearing black hoody jacket and pants. She wears skirts and dresses before. She looks simple right now.. and boyish.. Is it my fault? why did she chose to change even her style?

I can't concentrate to our lesson, She's bothering my mind. what's happening to me? breakup is normal to me but why it's different to Emma?

Emma

Finally the class is finished, I can go home now. I really want to go home. Before, after our class, I go to the mall with Brixton but it's different now, right now, I just want to go home.

As I went outside our classroom, Brixton stopped me from walking by holding my right arm. I removed his dirty arm ansmd raised my right brow to him. I turned my back because I don't want to talk to him. I will treat him as if he doesn't exists in this university and in my world.

"Emma, can we talk?" my brow doesn't want to go to its right place because of what he have said. I laughed outloud in my mind. what will he's gonna say this time?

I didn't turned to face him again but he went in front of me and blocked my way. I still don't want to talk to him. I don't want to hear his voice and his explanation anymore as if he will explain!

"Ems please, talk to me my princess" He said pleading. I want to puke on what he have said. my princess your ***! I'm not your princess anymore and I don't want to be your princess ever again.

I started to walk towards dufferent direction. I'm starting to get annoyed by his presence. I despise him so I can't stand being near to him. I uttered thanks to myself when he didn't followed me this time.

this is just the beginning of being a brave and emotionless woman. emotion and feelings will kill me. so I rather choose to be numb and emotionless. I want to live peacefully so I better not to give that asshole a single chance to talk to me. I know he will only tell lies. he already told me that he doesn't love me. I accepted it now so we don't have to talk. I promised to.my self not to fall again to his bait. I don't want someone like him in my life. I know that he 's just only a dark road that I got through and I don't have the plan to pass to that dark raod again.

In one month locking my self in my room, I realized that he is not worthy even a single drop of my tear. He is not worthy of my love. he's not worthy of my pain ,he is not worthy for me, I deserve someone better than him. I realized that he is nothing but an asshole manwhore and he is not for me.

I walk towards the university parking lot nd went inside my car. I promise to become independent and not to lean on any one. I will stand in my own.

I can't wait to graduate. After I graduate, I won't see him again and that is better. I want to live my life on my own. and I won't use my parents to achieve success but to make hardworks so I will become someone I want to be.

I want to leave this university. I don't want to remember everumything about the people in this university. especially that scumbag!

I will prove to him that he is an idiot!

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