My New Begging
I have this nagging feeling in the back of my head that tells me to just get up and leave, but then I get this other one that tells me to stay and be more reasonable about going out to this party tonight. It just feel like it'll be a big mistake and I'll regret going. It doesn't feel right to go tonight and trust me when I tell you I never felt like this whenever I decide to go to a party, like ever before. I just feel like something is going to happen something big and I'm not gonna like it. I should have listened to what my gut was telling me.
While I'm thinking about what to do just sitting on my bed waiting for my twin Roxy. Her name is actually Roxaline (pronounced Rosaline) but I've always called her that so it just kinda stuck. We are planning on sneaking out of this god for sacken house we live in surrounded by this really creepy forest we live in.
Don't go getting me wrong I really do love nature and the smell of it too, it's just I don't know how to explain it it just feels like there's some kind of existence or thing out there in this forest something more. It makes me want to run out there and figure it out some what like a rope tugging on this being pulling it closer and I'm that being, that existence, substance, individual whatever you want to call it. More like a thirst or thrive for it as if I just got home from a run after 2 days without food or water and it's all I want nothing more nothing less.
We just moved into to this small town like a week ago and it already feels weird but a good weird and bad if you feel me. It just feel like something big is going to happen something I need to know like a calling if that makes any type of sense, but a calling to protect which is honestly weird. I just hope this gut wrenching feeling is wrong and I'm just thinking too much, sigh.
This small town is pretty peaceful believe it or not, I just don't know why we moved in the first place. We were all doing fine it's not like one of our parents got a job offering or anything like that we just got up and we're told we were moving. Roxy's and my birthday is 3 months from now, and we will be turning 16 then and I honestly can't wait. But I know we are going to have to make some new friends here in this town which is easy for me but it's just Roxy that has a hard time, I still love her and nothing can tear us apart but I worry sometimes. Even though she knows how to party that's for sure but she's just shy around people she doesn't know that's all.
"Hey Tessa are you ready to go" (my real name is Tessandra but Tess or Tessa for short) says my oh so lovely sister snapping me out of my little train of thoughts with the biggest smile that I love so much. But then she stops when she sees me fiddling with my fingers with a small frown on my face and sits next to me with a concerned look on her face. I really wish she didn't do that I mean I never do I don't like seeing her sad or mad or anything other than happy because when she's happy I'm happy she's my whole world. "What's wrong your usually not like this, come on you can't tell me you're scared to meet new people, really you of all people?" She says with her grin that can light a room up and make me laugh no matter how down I feel. So I just let it go and push it aside and lie and just tell her it's nothing and how I just got bored waiting for her, all the while giving her a small smile and nudging her.
We both start laughing and then I realize what she's wearing, a plain pink crop top long sleeve sweater with a velvety pink skirt that goes down to her knees with a slit that goes up her left leg to her mid thigh and a little black belt to top that off. She has on her ring and necklace with her matching earrings to make a complete set, that might I add I got her for our last birthday, with a black long strapped bag on her side while looking all dolled up. Really cute if you ask me. With her beige knitted heels on and of course her other ring that's is exactly like mine that we both got for our 14th birthday and we're told to never take them off no matter what I honestly didn't care or think anything of it I don't think she did either. Never the less we never took them off.
Oh how we should have for so many different reasons we just didn't know at the time.
Before we leave I ask her if I look good and she gives me the thumbs up, so I look one last time in the mirror and see a 5'4 slender but plump looking girl with dark brown hair going into an ombré of light golden brown hair (all natural honey) and a slender face. She was wearing fishnets with knee high black boots and a big baggy T-Shirt that went down to her mid thighs and really low down her chest with a piece going up to wrap around her neck. But she had on a black bra-let with lace going down covering but not quite her tattoo that was placed just under her ******. She had on a diamond out thick chocker and bracelets well as a diamond body fitting jewelry piece that goes around her neck to her ****** and wraps around her waist perfectly. As well as the ring she got for her 14th birthday that was the same ring as her sisters, but instead of titanium hers was a beautiful rose gold color. And to top the whole outfit off she had a Michael Kors Sloan black wool small shoulder bag with chain straps.
"Hey Tessa you done lookin? Cause if you are let's goooooo", Roxy states as she pops her head in making her light brown creamy turning into a starlight sunshine golden at the end ombré hair dangle to the side of her head while she had on her cute little pouty face. "Yeah let's go have some fun".
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