Is it worth it

Is it worth it losing it all?Is it?For a love that could never be?For a person who doesn't even care?Is it worth it?Tell me

How long will you keep up with the lies?The lies you tell yourself daily that maybe one day she'll see you.That maybe one day she'll come back and say she needed what you did. How long will you stand from the sidelines watching as the truth that hurts so bad unravel before your eyes

Tell me how long will you stand there and watch her fall in love with someone else while you helplessly try to get her attention

So lost in deep in the way she talks to you you forget she's like this with everyone

What a fool indeed

Do you really think its all worth it? To do all these for someone who's never going to truly see you the way you see her. Who's never going to drop everything else and come running to you because of how much they value you

Tell me if its logic. Tell me if it makes sense. Tell me if everything you're doing will make her see you

Are you satisfied with being used when needed and replaced in a heartbeat everytime she finds someone new and interesting

Do you enjoy this or are you just blindly lost in your infatuation to notice your heart slowly breaking every single time she hugs the one she loves or gets a few more friends

Doesn't it hurt?

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I do it because I am used to it. I do it because it is my normal. I do it because even though from an outsider's perspective looking in I look desperate. I look weak and fragile and everything else people say

But she's been my only friend. She always has. Even when people ask why I'm always around I say she doesn't mind it. She's used to it

She never really cared if anyone saw me with her. She said she needed me and so I had to be there

So to answer your question Yes I think it's worth it. Yes I love it and I am comfortable with it.

I have learned to adapt and maneuver around no matter how hard it stings because in the end you get used to the pain and its slowly becomes comfortable

I have thought so long about leaving her and try living my own life but something constantly pulls me in and I don't know how to do it

Mostly because I'm scared. Scared she might not really even care if i left or worse. She might not notice a thing

However no matter how hard I want to leave too my heart just keeps telling me to stay a little longer its going to be worth it in the end

In the beginning I know I said with so much certainty that it is worth it but I don't know

Is it really worth it?

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