After Effect

The worst feeling that I could have ever experienced that time was not able to convey my feelings to him. That took over me for more than three months. That person was neither on Instagram nor on Facebook. Neither I had his contact number nor any other kind of social media. Gosh! that was kind of scary because I used to cry over my own foolishness. But guess what, last year when I met him I told him about my feelings for him that I used to have and guess what he shared same feeling for me too. But he did not ever try to confess his feelings because by that time I had rejected almost 6 to 7 boys, so he was quite skeptical about whether I would accept his proposal or reject him, brutally crashing his confidence and self-esteem. "What the hell that came from", I thought to myself. I never had such kind of bad image and even if I had, I had no friends to tell me about so let it be the past now. Now what I am happy about is that I was able to convey my feelings to that person. It really felt like someone had lifted a very heavyweight up from me.

But when I think about it now I realize that even if we had confessed our feelings to each other than also nothing would have changed because at the end of the day it would have turned into a long distance relationship, and things would have not worked out for us. Now we are quite good friends we do share lots of hobbies and interest. If we had got in a relationship and things would have turned ugly then I would have lost a good friend.

Now don't think that I never had a relationship. I had only one relationship in whole 23 years that continued for over 3 years 6 months that was the most romantic and precious relationship that I ever held and is also the most painful relationship that I could ever have. Breaking up is not tough whether be it in a friendship or be it in a relationship. But moving on is at least for me, I can say. It took me whole two years to move on from that person and focus on my life.

But that break up made me realize that in a relationship physical pleasures or connection is not something that I want. What I want is to see my person smile I can go on forever just by knowing that my person is living healthy, happy and safe life but not with somebody else obviously me otherwise it would be considered cheating. In fact, I just want my person to support me mentally and emotionally. A person who will let me know that no matter how hard my day is he will always be there to support me. You can work hard and smart to earn money. You can even change your appearance but what you cannot alter is feelings that other person have for you.

Don't worry I'll be sharing all my secrets regarding my Love life so stay tuned.

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