Author's Not-So-Personal Diary
I'm not really sure if I can share this with you guys but here goes nothing!
Just a disclaimer it's a bit triggering at some point.
So like two months ago my Civics teacher gave a group project (Online class ok?) he said, "In your group, you have to do a newscast. You have to report the news like any reporters in the news channel do.". I was like, "Not again I don't wanna do this. But I guess I don't have a choice but this also gives me a score, a big one to be exact.". So I worked hard to look for important news. I told my mom about it and she was supportive like any mom. She gave me suggestions of the news I should bring up. So, like I used those ideas but I also have to give it to a member which has the same news like me. Let's call her Julie. I gave two ideas from my mom and she was happy and grateful to me. I on the other hand is looking for more news. I found two but they expired because it was only talking about that month's festivals. So mom had to pick, she picked two, one was from Philippines (Which is my home.) the other one was from USA. I used those and started making the report I have to give to my group leader ( I was the assistant leader by the way). After giving the report to my leader and constantly waiting for his reply, mom suggested we record my cast at her work. I agreed then the leader replied that the report is nice and I should start recording. So I prepared my outfit for my cast, I brought 2 black blazers and 2 tops as well. Mom asked me if I should start my recording now. I strongly disagree because I had class to attend and some quizzes to finish. So ok the day went smoothly but roughly at the same time.
The next day, mom said we have to go to her work cuz she had some problems to fix and we could the opportunity to record. So I packed up, and went. The first recordimg was ok though there were sometime that we had to cut and repeat but only a few times. Then here goes *breathes* it was lunch and in a few minutes it was going to be my second to the last class. Mom said I had to stay here and have lunch and class. So I said ok and started setting up my laptop. Mom came in to the room and gave me a plate that had rice and a chicken drumstick she said she's going to leave and reminds me to report what's going on. I said goodbye and attended class. During class, which was boring, I ate my lunch. Then started thinking on which emotions or facial expression i should do while recording. I realize class is almost over and started saying good bye. I texted my mom that I finished class. She said they already arrived. I was like " Did you go somewhere or were you just testing me?" I finished my chicken. Went to the cafeteria and started keeping my laptop.
Mom came in and said let's continue the recording. I was pissed at that point cuz I thought we were done. But I kept my cool. Mom was so excited to go home. So she commanded to pick up the pace. I took a seat and fixed my hair before recording starts. Mom started recording and I started speaking. In the middle of the recording I noticed mom sweating. I realized that the fan was off to prevent unneccesary sounds. I tried talking a bit faster. Miracally I only had 3 cuts. And we finished before sunset. I started editing on the way home. (ʀᴇᴍɪɴᴅᴇʀ: I used my mom's phone just in case you're confused.) We arrived home. Then my phone blasted! It was full of Facebook notifs. I opened it to see a post from my mom and had a pic and vid of me. I pressed the video then it said "Bᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴜᴅɪᴏ" now this was a clip from my newscast. Mom said it was her favorite ppart of the video. I guess that made sense. I texted my leader that I have finished recording and I might be abke to pass it to him in a day or so. He replied and encourage me to finish it as soon as possible. I resumed on editing and imagining how my classmates and teacher will react. Hopimg as well to be one of the excellent students again. Yes, I was excelled in my class.
Now fast forward, I passed my video. The backstory of this video is so ᴀᴍᴀᴢɪɴɢ. 3 Days of editing & mom constantly rechecking and suggesting. I have finally passed and patiently waited for leader's reply. He replied that I am finished and the video is nice. I asked how many members have passed. He said none. I fell on my seats as I see the reply.
"NO ONE PASSED ASIDE FROM ME?!", I exclaimed. Mom busted my room. I told her and she just said, "At least you're finished." I just stood there dumbfounded and irritated. How am I the only one to finish?! I checked again 2 days later. Still nothing. Next day? nothing. I waited and waited to the point it was already February. I asked again. Leader told me Julie already passed. I was still not satisfied. I scolded the team.
Few weeks later, my teacher said to use the time to discuss the newscast with the team. I texted in the group chat and asked again. Before you get all mad at me for being so impatient. I am a "Must-finish-things girl" so I have to finish things immediately. The leader or Bryan replied only Julie and Jasen was passed. I was a bit relieved. I scolded them again. My best friend Vince calmed me down.
"Hannie stop being all hasty l. You are like just because your finished right *\=~\=*" He texted me. I was a bit pissed and explained to him why I am like this.
!Fast Forward! To the viewing of newscasting.
It was March already and I was anxious. Mom was calming me down and saying she is excited for my newscast. Three groups were criticized and corrected by my mom. One was complimented nicely. I was pissed at that though. Then it has come down to my group. Bryan shared his screen to the class and played the video. Few minutes has started and mom said it is getting boring, I agreed with her. There were nine members but one hasn't passed so Bryan was subbed. 4 members were criticized and corrected by my mom but 3 passed a bit of her expectations and then it was my turn to shine. Mom said that my part was her favorite. She said that the way my teacher reacted to my video was astonishingly wide smile. She then notices something wasn't right. I had two videos for newscast and one of my video's clips was cut. I then replied to Bryan angrily but calmly why he cut my video. He said he didn't feel like adding it in. I was ғᴜʀɪᴏᴜs. I let it slide hoping that it might still good. The video ended and I was sobbing quietly in my room. You might feel disgusted or not. But I had put a lot of effort on that thing. And one small thing that will take away all my hard work, believe it or not. I did it for my grades. I came out of my room just in time the teacher said my name.
"Congratulation Hannah Orozco you have an excel grade," he said. Wait that isn't my name! I told him my name and he apologize and thought my name was Hannah. I thanked him for giving me an excel grade. Funny thing is, whenever the teacher decides who has an excel grade he asks for the link of the video and to watch it again. But in our presentation, he immediately said my name. A member of a group asked who excelled in their grade. Mom started laughing saying that William was asking who excelled in their group. I didn't really expect highly their group had the Boasters- and-nosy -classmates after all. But that doesn't mean I thought really highly of my group. We did a good job and no one could really say a bad thing about it.
The day after the presentation, I felt kinda bad. Mom kept on asking how felt about acing the cast. I kinda felt like I was a desperate achiever. I couldn't think straight that day. Until now I felt awful for letting myself know as a desperate achiever.
!The end!
I hope you enjoyed reading this. Thank you for reading and stay safe!
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Comments
SantaClarus
well, idk how to say it. you are a good person from the sounds of it. I hope you achieve great heights and realise your full potential.
2021-03-26
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